Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Nervous

         

A/N: I'm going to go hide now, this was...interesting to write and that all I'm gonna say about it *some type of warning*

He was nervous, for some reason. Even though he'd been seeing Dan for months now and nothing was changing he was still nervous beyond belief. He scared the shit out of everyone these past few days and now he was paying the price. Everyone was handling him like he was utterly breakable, which he was, but he just didn't want to feel like he was walking on egg shells.

Dan even made it so that he didn't have to go to school on days were he couldn't get out of bed. Today wasn't too bad, he logged it at about a five, meaning with a little push he was able to do it. But now he was feeling nervous and anxious as he sat in the passengers seat of Jackie's car.

Jackie was taking him to see Dan, because Tyler was in school at the moment. Dan thought that maybe it would be better if he saw Troye once a week and Tyler once every other week in a joint appointment. But he knew for sure that Troye needed to be seen once a week until they were able to sort things out for him.

"You're shaking hun, are you sure you're alright" Jackie said as they got closer to Dan and Ken's office

"I-I'm good no worries" Troye said concentrating on his breathing, trying to imagine that it was Tyler sitting beside him and not Tyler's mom.

"Troye...I'm not entirely sure of everything thats going on because that is your business and Tyler is a very private person, but I'm here if you need anything. You may be my son's boyfriend but I'm still a mom first and I'll be here for you." Jackie said pulling up to the office building

"oh...thank you Jackie...that means a lot" Troye said with a soft smile

"of course sweetie" Jackie said as he unbuckled his seatbelt and opened the door "I'll see you after Tyler picks you up" she said and Troye nodded before shutting the door and going inside. It was going to be a long afternoon.

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As he expected, he was crying, Dan was sitting across the room in his chair with his legs crossed. Troye wiped his nose, he didn't like the options and he wished Dan had more ideas.

"I don't want more pills though" Troye said through tears "and I don't want to go an away camp for kids like me"

"Troye, I...I gave you two options and at this point...we need to do something." Dan said  "The type of pills you take for your anxiety will go along with these, except that you take these daily. We can monitor how you are feeling and if its not working we can try something else" Dan said

Troye sniffled "I...I don't know maybe I can ask Tyler"

Dan signed "Troye this is about your health and well being...while its great that you trust him so much you need to think about whats best for you right now"

"he knows whats best for me!" Troye growled "I don't wanna do this anymore! I don't want to take pills or listen to strangers sobs stories, I don't want to breath anymore I don't think you get that. So I can't make this choice okay?! Because if you leave it up to be I'm going to be dead! I don't think you are taking me seriously, nobody understands!"

"okay, if thats the way you feel then I'm going to make the choice for you. You'll start the medication tomorrow and I'll be talking to Jackie and Ken about keeping an eye on you maybe" Dan said "because you have told me this...I...I have to make sure you are with someone at all times"

"Yeah yeah" Troye grumbled "I'm on suicide watch I got it"

"I never said that, I just think that its safer for you to be with someone so that if you are feeling down you have someone to lean on" Dan said "you are not some suicide case Troye you are an intelligent young man who needs some help right now, there is nothing wrong with getting help"