Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Slipping

-few weeks later-

Troye crawled out of bed and slipped on an outfit for work, Tyler was going to meet him for lunch half way though his shift. Troye wasn't feeling his best lately the weight of his life was creeping in. Troye felt even worse because he thought he defeated his demons but here they were, back again attacking his mind.

Spring was blasting across the out doors, trees budding and flowers growing, color returning to the once icy cold outdoors. Tyler was going to take him to the lake house this weekend, he claimed it was beautiful this time of year. Thoughts of being with Tyler made him feel something, it was nice.

Troye bent down to tie his shoe as a breeze swept through the air, it was the type of weather where you needed a jacket in the morning but it was too warm for one later in the day. Troye liked this change in weather, it never happened back in Perth, he missed home a little more than he cared to admit.

He continued walking towards the diner trying not to think about what his life would have been like if he hadn't left home and came all the way here. Troye wasn't complaining though, he has a nice place to live, a steady job with good tips, and a beautiful boyfriend who he cared for deeply. But playing hide and seek from home didn't replace his blood, nothing was going to erase his past.

"Hi Tro" Connor said happily as he scooted the dishes off one of the recently emptied tables. Troye waved to him grabbing his dingy apron from behind the counter and tying it around his small frame straightening the grey beanie that rested on his head.

Only 3 hours until Tyler came for lunch

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Tyler wasn't feeling the motivation to do do his hair so he let the now light blonde locks lay on his forehead. He adjusted his jacket and began to head out the door going to meet Troye at work for lunch, even though he wasn't hungry and didn't want to, he was doing it for Troye. Tyler didn't feel the need to do it for himself so Troye was the motivation for him, Tyler would do it for Troye.

Tyler wasn't oblivious, he could tell that Troye has been a little off lately. For the past 4 days he hadn't quite been himself. They spent Mother's day with Jackie and had a wonderful time. Troye and Tyler woke up extra early to take her out to breakfast before the other kids woke up. Troye even bought flowers for her, beautiful blue and red roses because blue was his favorite and Jackie loved red roses. Tyler loved that Troye went out of his way to make his mom feel special. Then two days later a switch flipped and since then he'd been off.

Tyler would wake up in the middle of the night and Troye would already be awake seemly starring off into space not saying or doing anything. Monday Troye even insisted on spending the night alone in his apartment, saying that he needed to take care of things there. He didn't even let Tyler give him a ride home from work, stern on the fact that he could walk from the diner to his apartment.

Tyler sighed, he thought that they were both getting better. He thought that maybe they could be like a movie or a romance book were they met each other and the problems melted away. That Tyler would kiss Troye's scars and he wouldn't feel the need to cut, that Troye would tell him he was beautiful and Tyler wouldn't feel horrid anymore, that Tyler hushed Troye's anxiety and it melted away, that Troye touched him and he didn't feel fat anymore. But that's not reality

Reality sucks

Reality was scars, both mental and physical. It was panic that couldn't be cured with light coos, it was hunger that caused an frenzy of hatred, it was fights and it was tears and it was heartbreaking love

A love that dulled the pain but didn't make it go away. It was suffering for one's self and another person. It was feeling the weigh of simple human emotions so deeply that you almost feel nothing at all. It was love and it hurt, because when your love hurts you hurt too. Or at least Tyler did, he hoped that Troye felt the same way.

Maybe this trip away from it all, away from Tyler's family and stress would be good for them. They could both get a well needed break from mundane life. Tyler personally needed a break before he told Todd about...well everything. Tyler figured he would take advantage of the place while he still could. 

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A/N:

Sorry this is so short  and not very happy (lol am I though). Things are happening...

Okay, well I am super busy with college stuff and 'adult' things (ew) so I must be off, bye lovelies 

Good luck with your life

Katie :)