Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Struggling

*real unedited*

-two day time skip -

The journey home was quiet. Troye reached for Tyler's hand as Tyler drove smiling when he complied easily. "I like you a lot" Troye said during the journey squeezing Tyler's hand. "I know, I like you too" Tyler said looking at him quickly while he drove down the highway.

Tyler daydreamed about the summer, about how it would feel to drive 65 miles an hour down the highway with the windows down and music blasting. How happy they would be together, hopefully. In a perfect world that would be great, but it was not a perfect world. Maybe soon everything would be okay.

Maybe soon they would be happy. Be like all the other kids their age and not have to worry about each other so much. They would not have to be afraid to be apart for fear of what they will find when they returned. Tyler worrying about whether Troye would be breathing and Troye worried about whether Tyler was eating and breathing. Who knew breathing could be such a difficult task.

Tyler pulled up to the light that separated the paths, one to his house and one to Troye's. Troye took a deep breath rubbing his thumb over the back of Tyler's hand. "I-I think I'm going to head home" Troye said quietly

"Oh okay" Tyler said turning right towards Troye's apartment "Are you sure?" he asked

Troye paused and looked at him, tears pricking in his eyes "No" Troye said quietly shaking his head. "No, I'm not" Tyler slowed the car down "Troye whats wrong" Tyler asked pained by Troye's sadness.

"C-can we just go back to your house, I'm tired" Troye said wiping the few fallen tears away. Tyler didn't say anything else slowly turning the car around

Tyler grabbed Troye's hand which was clutching his opposite elbow making his arms fold across his chest. Tyler interlaced their fingers trying not to stare at the droplets rolling down Troye's cheeks. "I love you" Tyler said quietly

"I-I love you t-too" Troye said

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The boys sat it the kitchen with the rest of the family taking around them while eating dinner. Jackie cooked a huge meal of chicken, mashed potatoes and peas, everyone digging in and engaged in light conversation. Jackie pre plated everything so all she did was hand everyone a plate and sat back down to enjoy the meal herself.

Tyler sat next to Travis and Troye chewing his chicken and subtly watching Troye out of the corner of his eyes. Troye was moving his fork back and forth on his plate moving his peas around and flatting his potatoes on the paper plate. Tyler reached over and grabbed Troye's dish along with his own, He knew what it was like to not want to eat. The last thing Troye needed right now was to feel pressured. Tyler moved across the dining room and dropped the two plates in the bin.

"You should have eaten that" Troye said quietly still sitting in his seat, Tyler's family seemly unaware of their situation

Tyler pushed Troye's back so he would get up of the seat "I ate some of it besides I think we need to go to sleep" Tyler said. They walked out of the room, unnoticed, because when there are so many people around someone is bound to slip through the cracks. Tyler placed his hand on the small of Troye's back as the acceded the stair case.

Troye walked into the dark bedroom the only light source being the light shining from the open bathroom. Troye slipped his jeans off and climbed into bed, jumper and all...he just wanted to slip into unconscious and turn his brain off for a while. He laid onto the soft pillows suddenly over come by emotions. He was so frustrated feeling his way, he didn't know what he was feeling which magnified the whole situation.

Tyler sighed and crawled beside Troye kissing is temple lightly "Love whats wrong" Tyler asked quietly pulling Troye towards him after he slid underneath the covers.

Troye turned and buried his face in Tyler's chest "I don't know Ty" Troye said the words getting lost in the fabric "It just hurts, but it's okay.....I'm kinda used to it"

Tyler didn't know what to say, he had never encountered this before. Troye was the strong one, the one that held it together. But here he was falling apart and Tyler had no idea what to say to him. "Thats scares me" Tyler said quietly

"M-me too"

Tyler pulled Troye closer placing kisses into hair "What can I do" Tyler asked as he felt tears on his t-shirt

"J-just be here" Troye said latching onto Tyler's body tightly. "Always" Tyler said pulling Troye so that his body was rested on top of Tyler's. Their bodies pressed together as Troye began to calm down, relaxing in Tyler's hold.

Tyler held his boyfriend close because he knew. He knew that the prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets and the prettiest eyes have cried the most tears and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain. He knew Troye was hurting, but he wished Troye told him sooner.

"Troye?" Tyler asked cautiously, he needed to ask. It was going to eat at him if he didn't ask "C-can I um...Can I see your arms?" Tyler asked softly

Troye shot his head off of Tyler's chest "I-I promise I-I didn't do it" Troye said tears brimming in his eyes, making the deep blue pools churn with emotion "D-don't worry"

"You're my boyfriend, I'm always going to worry, now let me see...please. I just need to see" Tyler said running his fingers through Troye's curls.

Troye sat up, now straddling Tyler's waist, he lifted his navy jumper over his head and tossed it besides them. Now only wearing his briefs and a white tank top gently placing his hand palm up so that Tyler could see form himself. He was clean. He was struggling but her was clean.

Tyler pulled him back down, capturing his lips in a passionate kiss. One of his hands rested on the back of Troye's neck and the other on Troye's waist holding their bodies together tightly. "I'm proud of you, you know that" Tyler said "I know that things have not been easy for you lately and I'm not entirely sure why but I'm so so proud of you" Tyler said "I love you"

"I love you too"

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Troye woke up suddenly lifting his head off his pillow. Quickly noticing that it wasn't a pillow, It was Tyler. Their bodies pressed together and legs tangled. Troye was literally laying on top of him. He smiled and breathed deeply, Tyler's scent filling his nose and suddenly he felt different. Not overjoyed but certainly not numb like he had been. It was a nice change.

Troye giggled burring his face into Tyler's chest again, giggling more and more as he laid in Tyler's sleeping arms. Butterflies swarmed his belly a feeling he loved and very much missed these past two weeks. Troye sighed and lifted his head so that his chin rested on Tyler's chest.

He looked so sweet while he slept, all his features at ease. It was nice to see Tyler's face calm, it was always worried and this was a calming change. He was gorgeous. Suddenly one of his eyes popped open causing Troye to jump.

"I can feel you staring at me" Tyler said closing his eye again

Troye giggled again "I can't help it, there is so much to look at" Troye said "You're beautiful"

Tyler's eyes were still closed as a blush rose on his face and he laughed "Would you stop" he said smiling

"I can't that's not possible" Troye said kissing his forehead

Tyler smiled "I hate you" more of Troye's giggles filled the room "I know" he said

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A/N:

I didn't even reread this so sorry for the mistakes I know there are probably tons of them.

Anyway I gtg. I love you all, good luck with your life 

Katie :)