My Dark Poems

Running My Mind

I've never wanted to
Be numb
To look around
Without seeing
I saw you today
And all I wanted
Was to be blind
It scared me
Because my desire to forget
Is stronger
Then my desire to mend
Maybe that means
The pain was too deep
The knife you turned
Too much
You looked at me too
It felt as if the world stopped
I looked away first
Because your eyes
Hurt mine
Your soul
Tried to capture mine
In its hold
I can't let that
Happen again
Because once you are torn away
I feel cold
I want to feel numb
And that leaves me
Screaming to the ceiling
Silently
With tears streaming
And mascara running
Just as fast as the memories
Of you on mind
Spinning through
The scenes of our fall
Cascading hearts
A Shattered
Couple
That was never together
And yet fearful of truly
Being apart
Is that love?
Because all I want now
Is to forget you ever
Ran through my mind
And yet I can't say
Honestly
That I don't willingly put you there