My Dark Poems

I hear screaming or perhaps its nothing

I feel a darkness creeping
Lurking on the outskirts
Of my sanity
Threatening to drown me
In numbness
In a cold that shocks my lungs
In ice that ends the life of ships
The change has begun to sting
My fingertips
And chase sensations around my nerves
I don't want to get up
I feel no need to breathe
Unless perhaps I was underwater
Surely walking into traffic would do
Quite a bit of damage
Make my glass bones seen
Cutting through my paper skin
But perhaps even that damage
Would not be enough
I've seen myself
Jerking the steering wheel on the freeway
Towards another
Hurting another
And death though inevitable
Could passively skip over me
And stab them in the chest
I can't have that
The blood would ooze from my eyes
The guilt scratching at my skin
Like nails
As I search for a purpose
I again come to the surface with bare arms
And blank slates
Perhaps I was a mistake
Pushed out of the body of a teen
Raised in poverty
Learning to hate humanity
Perhaps we all are mistakes
That the universe couldn't erase
Even though earth longs for solitude
Where Mother Nature can tend to her children
That don't continuously
Cause her pain

I can sense the smoke leaving my lips
Covering my silences
With thoughts of glory
And yet a strange darkness
Has become attached to my skin
Like a leech
Making my soul scream
Making my mind numb