Weightless

chapter twenty one

Serenity's Point of View

Justin said we'd talk about it tomorrow. But it was mid afternoon and he still never brought it up. I was still a little shaken up from last night but I was better. I was still a little jumpy, but I had to reassure myself that I was safe, these people wouldn't hurt me. Besides, Cole was dead. Right?

I was watching Justin talking to Avery, who I hadn't seen since last night. I was supposed to be paying attention to the TV, but quite honestly how could I pay attention? I really wanted to talk to him about it. Did he like me back? I began chewing on my bottom lip and I felt Korina nudge me softly.

She raised an eyebrow at me. "D—"

"Yes, I like him," I said, already knowing what she was going to ask.

She blinked. "I was going to ask you if you knew where Blue was but aw, Serenity."

"He said we should what until today to talk about it. And it's today and we still haven't talked about it. He's driving me insane," I whined, pretty sure I looked like a nervous mess. I tapped my foot, chewing on my lip.

"Why don't you make the first move?" She asked. "Demand to know how he feels about you."

"But what if he doesn't like me back and that's why he's avoiding the conversation? To spare my feelings," I whispered.

After what happened yesterday and almost dying about nineteen times, I felt reckless yet as fragile as a flower. I wanted to demand he told me how he felt about me but knew I would be crushed if he didn't feel the same.

She looked at me as though I was stupid. "He likes you, Serenity. Are you blind?"

I sighed. I wanted to believe that. I wanted to believe he felt something as well every time he kissed me. I wanted to believe his kisses meant more than just using me. But I was clueless to everything. Boys didn't really like me. The last encounter I had with a boyfriend he broke up with me because I wouldn't have sex with him after a month.

I wasn't sure what I wanted. To be with him or not to be with him. Whichever, his silence about the subject was driving me crazy.

His eyes met mine briefly before he muttered something to Avery again. I wasn't sure what they were talking about but I felt like it was something with what happened last night. I saw Avery side glance me and then I worried that Justin probably told him about my feelings and how pathetic they were. I gulped, Justin wouldn't do that would he?

When Avery walked away, Justin stood leaning against the counter. I hesitantly got up with enough will power. His eyes remained downcast until I was a few inches away.

"We need to—"

"Follow me," he said, cutting me off. I sighed and nodded, following silently behind him. He took me out back and I felt myself flush pale. This is where everything went wrong last night. I gulped, pushing my fears away. He lead me to the gazebo and my lips parted.

Inside the gazebo were flowers. Everywhere. Flowers surrounded the lining and tall walls of the gazebo. Even the chairs were laced with vines of flowers. Red roses were scattered on the table and he went and picked one up. It smelled lovely and was perhaps do beautiful it made my heart swell.

"Oh my..." I gaped around at my surroundings. "This is so beautiful."

He pulled out the chair for me to sit and I hesitantly sat in it. He brought the other sitting across from me. He handed me the red rose and I don't think I've ever cherished something so much in my entire life.

"I'm glad you like it. Blue is really into gardening and this view was so beautiful, I wanted you to see it too," he told me.

I fiddled with my thumbs after a while of silence. "So you like me too?"