Forever With Me《Marcelee》

Chapter 36

(MARCELINE/"ERIN'S" POV)

I stacked the final piece of bread on Ash's turkey sandwich. He said I used to make these for him. I felt guilty that I can't remember that because I know I should.

I floated towards the living room of this house where Ash was, holding the plate of turkey sandwich between my thumb and the rest of my fingers.

I also subconsciously discovered things about myself. I crave for the red color and I can suck the red shades out of things. I can levitate and fly around.

By now I've also noticed the two tiny circles on my neck. They felt like two tiny craters when I touched them with my fingers. I have sharp fangs. Ash also said that when I get extremely mad, my eyes turn black with red dots at the center.

He smiled as I neared him. I handed him his sandwich. "Thanks Babe," he said as he kissed my cheek, and then he began eating his sandiwich.

I went to our bedroom. I didn't imagine we lived here. The place was isolated, no one lives around us. The house is small and seems abondoned. But I feel like I've been here. I mean, I know I've been here, Ash and I live here. But there's just this feeling that I might remember bits and pieces about this place.

The doctor said I should be exposed to places or events which had significance in my life to help me cope.

I flew to the closet and put on Ash's black shirt. I flew out of the room. "Where are you going?" He questioned before I could open the door, stopping me. I turned around to see him staring at me, crossing his arms.

"Uh, n-nowhere in particular," I stuttered. He grabbed my wrist. "No, you're not going anywhere."

This was a different side of him. I didn't see him like this yesterday. He was somehow... angry. Why would he be angry?

"Why not?" I countered as I looked at him. He was squeezing my arm tight. "Y-you're hurting me," I said through gritted teeth. He dragged me a few meters away from the door and let go. I gently rubbed my now sore arm, but it quickly healed.

"Erin, you are not leaving this house unless I say so."

I scowled at his statement. Was he really this controlling? How did I use to react to this?

My eyes began to wander as I thought. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at him. His eyes were now soft.

"Erin, I-I'm sorry," he stuttered. There was suddenly a change of mood. I kept silent.

"Listen," he sighed as he grabbed me by my shoulders. "I just don't want you wandering out there. It's a dangerous world, do you realize that?"

"So, what? I can handle myself, Ash. I'm not a kid," I answered.

"Many people are after you... Erin," he said reluctantly.

"Why would people be after me?" I asked, confused as hell. There are so many questions running around my mind. But I just have to stay calm. I better not stress myself out again. I don't want to cry.

"Because of me. Because of the monster they think I am. They will use you to get me. And I don't want that to happen."

His words struck me. I suddenly felt bad for thinking he was such a controlling husband. He pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him. "I'm sorry," I whispered to his ear. "I'm sorry too," he breathed warmly against the skin of my neck.

But how can I be free if I'm stuck in this house? How can I go and explore the places I've been to but have no memories of? Surely I wasn't stuck in this house my whole life.

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It was already 12 midnight. I laid in bed, still wide awake. I just couldn't sleep. My husband was laying behind me, his arms around me, my back towards him. There were so many questions in my mind. They never left since I woke up in the hospital, and they endlessly spun around my head.

Something was missing. It was a feeling of longing. But for what? For who? What am I talking about? I'm with my husband now. But there's just this feeling that I'm longing for something.

Now that I'm thinking of it, some questions popped in my mind.

How did Ash and I meet?

Did I date someone else other than Ash?

I'd like to see the person, what he looked like, if he did exist. Actually, I want to meet everyone. I'm sure I've had friends or at least acquaintances. I want to meet them, I want to see what they look like.

But... how?

This is so hard. I don't even have the freedom to go out and go wherever I want.

Why me?

Why did this have to happen to me?

I want my life back.

Tears started trickling down to the side of my eyes, leaving cold trails along their way.

I don't even have the chance to fix my life.

I know deep inside I'm strong. If life's tough, I know I should be tougher. But strong people cry too, I guess.

I rubbed the blanket against my eyes to wipe off the tears. My eyes fluttered open after. I'm just staring at darkness. My jogged breaths woke Ash.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He whispered as he propped himself up with one elbow. I hate it when he asks that and my tears swell up again. I blinked and wiped them off again. "Erin..."

I turned around to face him and just threw my arm around him. I always feel like he could protect me somehow. He laid back and caressed the back of my head. "It's okay," he whispered as I cried.

He fell asleep eventually, but I didn't. I couldn't. I meticulously unwrapped his arm from me, careful I wouldn't wake him up.

Don't worry, Erin. One step at a time, you'll get your memories back.

I floated over to the window and just looked at the moon, flooding the woods with its gloomy light. I wonder what it's like out there. I won't let anything stop me from finding out who I am.

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AN: I'm so sorry that took longer than expected. My hamster died <|3 It was really hard for me to cope as I've grown attached to her.

Anyway, concerto's done and there's nothing else to do, so the next update's tomorrow. Thank you so much for your support and patience. I love you guys! ♡♡♡