Mrs Tomlinson

Chapter 44

Abby's POV 

Louis started driving to the police station. I was kind of happy we were pressing charges against him. What he did to me is wrong. I don't ever want to go through that again. That's why I felt him. I looked down at my wrists and saw red marks where I cut myself earlier. I shouldn't have done that. I thought it would take the pain away but it just made it worse. I feel better with Louis around. I should have went and just been in his arms instead of that. When I'm with him and we're not fighting, everything is fine. I don't worry about much. We got to the police station and Louis grabbed my hand. He asked "Are you ready to do this?"

"Yeah, it needs to be done."

We walked in and got the charges against Nick. I'm sure he didn't press charges against Louis yet but Nick wouldn't win. He won't get away with what he did to me. What he did was wrong. I shouldn't have had to go through that again. After him and I broke up that should have been the end of it. To him it wasn't over and I'm sure to him it's still not. It should be over. He knows I'm married to Louis and have a child with him. I don't think me and Louis are going to break up so he should just give up.  I know he doesn't love me. He never did. I was just something he used to abuse. Now it's over. I don't think he can stand the though of me being happy. With him I wasn't happy. I'm with Louis now and I'm happy. It probably makes him upset that I am happy. It's what I want and he doens't seem to care. I know he wants to go back to the way it was. He wants to abuse me. I'm not going back to that. Me and Louis finished up at the police station and we got back in the car and he started driving back home. He grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers. I love being around Louis. He makes me happy even though I know about his past. He's changed so much and I don't see him going back to being like that. I stayed quiet on the way home. For some reason after this I can't stop thinking about my past. I never told Louis about my whole past. He knows part of it just not all. I never told anyone. I haven't even said any of it to Niall. I'm scared to tell him about it. I don't really want to tell anyone about it all. I think I should tell Louis though. I love him and we're married. We've been together for more than two years now. He should know. I know he wants to know about it all but he's never pressured me into telling him about it all. He knows I've never told him about it all. I've told him small things but I've never told him about the last night. I feel so embarrassed by that night. Worse then I did when Louis fucked up. I don't think Louis will fuck up again though. He doesn't want to lose me and he knows he could possibly lose me if he fucks up again. I love him and if I had to leave him it would be one of the hardest things to do. I don't even know if I could. I don't want to think about that. Him and I have been good. We haven't exactly fought in a week or two. I know him and I are still working some small things out but I do want another baby. I don't want to push things too far. Maybe waiting is a good thing. I know we're both ready now but it's not the time yet. Having to worry about Mason is enough with all that's going on. I know he's one and has no idea what's going on but he can tell there's something wrong. I feel horrible for him. He's not going to have the life I want him to have. I always thought my mom would be around and she's not. I can't trust her around him or my dad. I know he always has people around him that love him. Me, Louis, the boys, Louis' mom and his sisters. He has so many people around him that love him it makes things a little better. 

Louis' POV  

Abby has been so quiet on the way home. I can tell she's thinking. I want to know what she's thinking about. I don't want to push her into telling me though. I kind of just want to be home so we can talk. I love her and want her to be happy. I don't want her to be going through all the things she's had to go through. She's a stronger person than I though. She's had to deal with so much. A lot of it isn't anything good. I love her so much. I would do anything for her to be happy again. I'm sure she's happy but she's still a little upset about what happened. I want to go get Mason but I know she won't talk with him around. I'm sure he's having fun with Niall. He loves Niall so much. They got so close. They probably got close because Niall and Abby did. I know Niall is a good listener. I don't blame her for getting close with him. He's so sensitive. It's weird that he even hangs out with us. We got home and Abby still hasn't said anything. She's still thinking. I can tell. She's not that hard to read. I got out of the car and grabbed her hand again. I intertwined our fingers and we walked in. She pulled away from me and walked into the living room. What's wrong with her? I know something has to be up with her. It's not hard to tell when something is. I walked in the living room and saw her sitting on the couch. She looked up and gave me a small smile. That smile isn't the same as her normal smile. I love her other smile. I went over and sat next to her on the couch and wrapped my arm around her. I pulled her closer to me and kissed her head. She looked up at me and kissed me. This surprised me. I didn't think she was going to kiss me. She usually doesn't when she's upset. Her lips were soft and gentle as always. She pulled away and said "I want to tell you something."