Mrs Tomlinson

Chapter 59

Abby's POV 

I looked over and saw that Louis was home. I know that normally I would be happy that he's home but right now I'm not. I know it's obvious that something is bothering me. I know Louis' going to ask about it but I don't know if I want to tell him about it or not. I know I should tell him but there's a part of me that doesn't want to. What if I think Niall is right? Do I just leave Louis and go to him? I just don't know right now. I just need to worry about me and Mason right now. I love Louis but I can't think about him too in this. I need some time to myself to just think things through. 

I walked over to Louis and he lent down and kissed me. After a minute I pulled away and he asked "How was your day?"

"Good, yours?"

"Better now that I'm here."

I gave him a small smile and he took Mason out of my arms. We walked downstairs and I went into the kitchen. I pulled out some food and started making dinner. I felt Louis walk up behind me and wrap his arms around my waist. I felt him move some of my hair and he said "I can tell something is bothering you."

"I've just been thinking."

"About?''

"Everything."

"Do you want some time alone?"

"Yeah."

"Well after dinner you go upstairs and I'll take care of Mason till his bedtime and I'll be in our room."

"Thank you."

"No problem."

He kissed my cheek and pulled away. He walked back over to the table and started playing with Mason. I finished dinner and I made us all a plate and I put them on the table and I put Mason's on his highchair. I started eating and Louis asked "Do you want to talk about something?"

"I don't know yet. I haven't had time to think."

 "Alright."

I know it's bothering him not knowing what's wrong with me. I kind of wish that Niall didn't come over today. If he didn't come over I wouldn't be thinking about this right now. I love Niall but not in the same way he loves me. I love Louis. I know that is something that won't change. I finished eating and put my plate in the sink. I felt Louis walk up behind me again. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I turned around and wrapped mine around his torso. He lent down and kissed me. His lips were soft and gentle against mine. I felt him run his tongue over my bottom lip and I let him have entrance. After a couple minutes I pulled away and said "I love you."

"I love you. Probably more than you know."

I smiled and pulled away. I walked upstairs and went into our bedroom. I know I need to think everything over. I love Louis but should I stay with him? I feel like I should. I mean we have Mason together possibly another kid on the way and I love him. I know sometimes he doesn't treat me right it's who he is. Us fighting a lot is just how it's been lately. I know it wasn't like that at first though. I can tell things are going back to the way they were before. I'm sure we can be like that again. I want it to be like that again. I'm sure Louis does too. I know how me and Louis are though. We can make it through anything. We worked through us fighting a lot, cheating on each other, him going to jail and more. I'm sure things will work out between us. I know me and Louis can't focus on our past we can only focus on our future. I know we can't focus on that with Niall coming around saying how he can treat me better than Louis can. I'm the first girl that Louis has been in a relationship with. I know he still isn't used to all of it but at least he tries. I know there are some things that he's still working on but I love that he's trying. I'd rather him try than not try at all. I know it seemed like at one point that he wasn't even trying anymore but I know he is. I know this is hard for him too. I know he couldn't be changed all at once. I don't want him to change though. I want him to be happy too. I know he's happy when he's with me. I know we're both an emotional mess when the other isn't around. Niall made a point saying that Louis doesn't treat me the way that I should be treated. I know Louis tries though. That's all I want him to do. He tries and that what matters to me. I know Niall and I wouldn't fight as much as me and Louis do if we were together. I know Niall would make sure me and Mason were taken care of too. There's still the possibility that I'm pregnant with another kid that's Louis'. I love Niall but not the same way. I think I know what I'm going to do. I know I need to talk to Louis though. I know he can help me with this.