One to Another - quiet, kind & special people

Part 18 - Finn

So there it is. I've told her. I have never brought anyone here but I needed her to understand that we all have stuff. For me, my mum leaving like she did destroyed everything I thought I was. She meant everything to me but she left me. I was alone. Abandoned.

"We all have something Rae, and I know I find it hard to talk about mine. People, even my friends, they think they know me, but they don't" I am looking out to the river and then back at Rae. She is so beautiful with the gentle breeze moving her hair. She is listening intently. "Some people crumble others are strong. You are one of the strong ones." She smiles at me not believing a word of it I know that look on her face already, it is full of self doubt.

"You are strong Rae. You survive. You are still kind. You are still more special than any girl I have ever known" I continue hoping she is hearing me.

"Finn" she says "can you sit with me?" She asks. I sit next to Rae and I deliberately sit close enough that our bodies are touching. I love having her next to me.

"Thank you for bringing me here" she smiles. "You really are much more than I gave you credit for" she continues. I am hanging on her every word. Further proof that I am gone. This girl in no time at all has me telling her my secrets.

"My dad left me when I was young. I get postcards but I am starting to wonder if they are really from him to be honest" Rae confesses. I remember her wall full of postcards. "Why?" I ask. "Something about them just doesn't make sense. Did you see them on my wall?" she enquires. I nod. "I took them all down the other day and was going to ask my mum about them but instead I put them all back up and am trying to convince myself that they aren't a lie" she explains with a sad tone.

I am watching her closely when she dropped the question nobody, and I mean NOBODY has asked me. "Do you miss her?"

I pause before I answer "yeah, of course."

"Do you know where she is?" She probes further reaching out and putting her hand on my thigh reassuring me that it is ok. "Yeah I do" I reply with my entire body being rigid "but" I stutter, "I can't see her it hurts too much."

Rae moves infront of me a hand on each of my thighs and looks me in the eye. Her eyes are deep and caring. She says "I like you and whatever this is, I am here." I smile in reply.

I grab for the food and larger "it's probably cold but I'm starving, bog in" I say nodding to the food as I offer Rae a can. She eagerly takes it, "cheers m'dear" I say. Rae opens hers immediately, taking a drink. I tuck in I am starving but Rae she is playing with the same two chips nibbling the smallest amount, even then she turns her head away from me like she doesn't want me to see. This time I ignore it only because I feel she has revealed so much already.

When we've finished I wrap it all up into a ball and place it next to the blanket. I lay down and Rae lays down next to me. Our legs crossing over each others.

I feel calm.
I feel happy.
I feel peaceful.
I feel hopeful.

We are silent for the longest time. I close my eyes and I listen to the wind moving the leaves and the branches croaking.

I look to Rae who is laying there. Radiant. Whatever she is thinking about makes her smile. I can't help myself I have to know.

"Whatcha thinking about Rae?" I ask with a smirk on my face. I hope she says me. I hope she says me. I internally chant.

"I am thinking about how much your musical taste sucks" she giggles. "Is that right?" I ask. "Yup, I've had little proof to the contrary" she continues to tease. I laugh and roll on my side, moving closer to Rae and using a hand to stroke her hair. She opens her beautiful eyes up, looking right at me. Fuck I want to pounce on her. I wish we could fool around here but I know any attempt by me will send her running.

"You alright?" I ask.

"Yeah" she replies.

I lean in and kiss her lips gently. She kisses me back dissolving all my self doubt and worry. Rae turns into me, both of us lying on our sides. Her hand finds my head and she is gently playing with my hair. I feel like I could burst.

She has made her way down to my neck nibbling, biting, kissing and sucking, while still playing with my hair. I am lost in her touch. Her perfect lips on me. Her hands becoming slightly rougher with me pulling me to her.

I don't stop her. I can't. I pull her up and start kissing her lips again, this time not so gently. I keep my hands up at her neck and shoulders her 'safe zone' that I have already found through trial and error. Her hands have made there way under my shirt. He hands feel so good on my skin. I don't stop her. Her hands on my chest playing with my nipples. The pleasure pulsing through me, my cock pressed against my fly. I am hard. She is still kissing me her tongue deep in my mouth. I am transported. I am trying hard not to touch her but I know my hands are becoming rougher within her 'safe zone'.

It is like Rae can read my mind. While one hand continues to explore my chest the other has started rubbing my cock on the outside of my jeans. I tilt my head back and she kisses my neck instead. I imagine how wet she must be. I imagine what that would feel like. I imagine her letting me touch her. My head is spinning. So much so I had no idea she had undone my belt and fly and her hand was now inside my pants touching my cock. Rae's hand on my cock. FUCK. I moan. "Is it ok?" Rae asks hestitantly. I nod unable to speak.

Rae's hand is moving faster and her lips and tongue more urgent. Before I know it I am overcome with intense pleasure throughout my body. I moan her name "Rae" my eyes closed. Rae's hand on my cock is mind blowing and I am lost in the sensations pumping through my body.

I don't know where I get the strength but with the feelings becoming more intense I feel I should warn her "I'm going to cum if you keep that up Rae" I gasp gripping her shoulders tightly. I am trying so hard not to cum but I know I won't be able to resist.

Rae seems even more determined and I find myself coming apart at the seams. "Rae" escaping my lips as I cum. My body convulsing from her touch.

I lay back trying to catch my breathe. Before I do Rae asks nervously "was it alright?" I look at her trying to focus and I nod my head as I take her head within my hands and kiss her. As we pull apart I say reassuringly "more than alright. You are a bit of a sexy minx aren't you Rae? I certainly didn't think this would of happened. Thank you." She giggles.

We lay side by side in my special place after me falling apart. I feel content and my place has become more special because I am here with Rae.

I never expected this. Who would have. As my breathing returns to normal I am holding Rae in my arms for what seems like forever. It feels so right. "Let's go girl?" I ask. Rae smiles at me and instead of running reminds me that we have a whole night together.

Now my mind is in hyperdrive.

I have to remind myself to go slow.