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|35| The Irony Is Real

The Irony Is Real

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You and I were talkingㅡon WhatsAppㅡabout a friend of ours who had love problems; he was unlucky in love, as he claimed to be.

You and I both think he could've just moved on and gotten over it.

Warning: The conversation later changed its direction.

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I really don't wanna judge him but everyone judges everyone else..

Is he in desperate need of a girl to cure his past ex crushes that were either not interested in him or taken away from him?

Why does he need another girl to get over one?

And he's had a lot of crushes too.

Or he makes it seem like he has a lot of crushes.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is a choice.

He made his bed. He gotta lie in it.

But he keeps complaining that he always gets betrayed by his own friends.

He could've just moved the eff on.

I mean, you got over Kylie. I got over you. We're both still alive and breathing huh?

And he can't even be kind to himself and stop himself from suffering over things that can be settled.

[I really don't wanna judge him but everyone judges everyone else..]
I dont want to judge him cause he's my friend and all but he's making it really hard for me not to

[Is he in desperate need of a girl to cure his past ex crushes that were either not interested in him or taken away from him?]
I know right, he seems so desperate for the past year since that girl doesn't want him

[I mean, you got over Kylie. I got over you. We're both still alive and breathing huh?]
Wait wait who said i got over kylie?

[And he can't even be kind to himself and stop himself from suffering over things that can be settled.]
True

He should just be real with himself

[Wait wait who said i got over kylie?]
You're still not over her? Oops 😱

[You're still not over her? Oops 😱]
Well i was

But then

She returned something to me the other day

Something that i had given her a while back

It was just something small

A Liverpool FC coin which i got at the Liverpool stadium in Liverpool

Too much liverpool in a sentence aye? 😂

She liked the coin so much when i showed it to her when i came back from the uk

That she wanted it to keep in her purse

And then she returned the coin the other day

Brought back a lot of memories to me

[But then]
THIS THIS THIS

I freaking hate that.

I feel you, man.

And you know what they say..

You never really get over someone. You just come to a point where it doesn't bother you that much.

I never thought of being with Kylie in the first place

We just connected so easily when we first had lunch together

So now you're back to 'still not over her' phase?

It sucks, doesn't it?

It's like when you thought you've finally moved on and gotten over somebody, and then that person just does something that makes those feelings return and you're torn between wishing them all away and wanting to feel them all over again.

You get what I mean?

[So now you're back to 'still not over her' phase?]
Yeah a little

I get what you mean

[You never really get over someone. You just come to a point where it doesn't bother you that much.]
This is super true as well

And don't get me wrong

I'm not making myself suffer or anything

Its just

When she returned the coin back

That was like

The last thing i gave her which she held

She gave me back all the other stuff

Oh wait

She still uses the purse i gave her

And yeah i'm just remembering back the good old days

Holy shit I'm talking about my feelings with the very person I used to have feelings for and the irony has never been, um, ironic. You could say that.

Let me take a moment to laugh at myself. Literally.

[Holy shit I'm talking about my feelings with the very person I used to have feelings for and the irony has never been, um, ironic. You could say that.]
Yeah the irony is real 😂

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The irony is real, indeed.

I had warned that the conversation later changed its direction.

Which it did.

I thought you were over her, and I thought I was over you when I told you that. However, when you told me that you were still not over herㅡor better yet, you were brought back to the past I guess I was just trying to convince myself that I was already over you.

Maybe I couldn't convince myself enough, or maybe that's the bitter truth. I'm still not over you no matter how many times I've said I am.

You see, my life principle is 'What's past is past'. I've been holding on to that since forever because I believe that the past should stay in the past.

Or so I thought.

They never told me that the unresolved past would tend to haunt you back in the future. Maybe that's what it's doing nowㅡit's haunting me back.

My feelings were left unresolved. I left them long time ago and neglected them as much as I could. Now they come back to haunt me and remind me of you.

Guess I still have feelings for you. And they've never been more surreal.

Because if I don't have feelings for you, in my prayers I wouldn't have asked for you to stay permanently in my life.