You Got This
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The person that I loved was a strong person who always said "Nah don't care what they say. It doesn't matter. Fuck them." Who always reminded me to just forget anyone else and appreciate those who appreciate you. Who was there to help me whenever I felt upset. Who got me, still does, every time. Who got my back when I felt down. Who told me to just fuck it and ignore that bullshit.
And it's okay to feel lost. I once lost myself too. And that was quite a hard time for me. Okay no. That was the most difficult and the darkest time. It took me quite a couple of years since you were the reason why. You see, I never told you these things directly. I seemed fine like I'd left everything behind but there were nights when I lost it and broke down. But day by day I got better even if it was just a little, and that was progress no matter how slow it took. As much as I was sad, at least I felt calm and content to know that there's so much that I hadn't explored yet and it didn't matter if I broke down sometimes because I reminded myself that I was only human. And humans feel things. And there's no need to be sorry for being human.
And slowly I found myself. Piece by piece. Slow but steady. I got a little bit stonger, a little bit better at handling my feelings. You know, that is all okay. It's okay to feel things you can't help feeling. But you also have to remind yourself that no matter what, when you wake up in the morning, there's always something new to look for. Be it the food you wanna eat, or the place you wanna go to. Focus on the brighter side of life.
It's not easy but it's worth it. You gotta convince yourself every day. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are enough. You are enough. Not for others but for yourself. You are enough and it's okay to not feel okay. The key is acceptance. So day by day you try and try and try to accept yourself for who you are and what you're capable of. Be proud of the fact that you try because trying is better than making no effort at all.
Okay? You got this. You're you. Appreciate yourself more and try, just try to love yourself. Not in the narcissistic way but in the accepting way. Embrace yourself. Whatever flaw you have. Whenever you think that you're not enough, block those mean thoughts. You control your mind. Not vice versa. You've got the power to do everything to yourself, don't make the mistake of focusing on the bad part of yourself. Everyone has a dark side. Accept it and be gentle with it. As I said, acceptance is key. Trust me.
And of all people, you would've known I would never stab you in the back. You may be too blind to see it, but don't push people away in fear of feeling betrayed. You got this, alright? Hang in there.

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Midnight Thoughts ✔
Poetry"Writing can heal us too." ㅡ Midnight Thoughts is a collection of poems, real life conversations, fictional stuff, unsent letters, and most importantly, thoughts. This is for the ones who haveㅡ ...had their hearts broken. ...gone through bad breakup...