Midnight Thoughts ✔

|55| Real Deal

Real Deal

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Because I love him.

No, I don't.

I love him.

Would you look at that? Stop lying.

No, you stop lying to yourself.

And there my heart goes...

Because I love him.

Hush. This is a vicious cycle.

I love him.

Just shut up. I don't love him.

You can't deny the truth.

I'm not in denial.

You are and you still don't wanna admit it. Your love is a real deal but you neglect it. Every single day he's in your prayers and you know you mean every single one of it. You don't want him now nor do you want him later. You want him forever. You want the idea of the two of you to last forever. You want him to always be there for you, right next to you.

You want him to take your hand and look into your eyes and say, "I'm happy we're married." You want to know what's going on in his mind. You want to know what's going on in his life. You want to wake up in his arms and see the smile on his face. You want him to caress your face and say, "I'm glad we made it." You want to walk into the kitchen and see him cooking breakfast. And in silence, you want to surprise him and hug him from behind.

You want to be there for him when he's stressed about work and you want to kiss the life out of him just so he forgets all the problems in the world. You want to go on a date with him and eat at his favorite restaurant. You want to spend the night with him watching movies with his arm around you. You want to argue with him when your opinions differ from his. You want to make up with him so he lets you kiss him again.

When it comes to him, you see forever. You create these scenarios in your head every night, praying they will come true one day. You want the both of you to happen for real. He may not want you now, but you want him to want you later and hopefully forever. And girl, if you don't love him, if your love isn't real, those things I said wouldn't even cross your mind.

Shut up.