Shawn Mendes Imagines

90- I Came To Find You

Shawn;

This was it. I was stood firmly outside of room 237 which was located in a rusty, old motel. I raised my fist and knocked 5 times gently on the door.

Realisation suddenly hit me. I was about to find the girl I have been look for. I had spent numerous weeks and countless days trying to figure out where she could possibly be. She left simple clues and messages for me so I guess she wanted me to find her. The anxiety was killing me as the sound of little feet padded across the floor from the other side of the door.

She swung the door open and my face lit up whereas her mouth fell agape. My face fell as I noticed her expression.

"Shawn" she whispered.

"Hey" I mumbled.

"Er- Come in." She said as she stepped aside allowing me to enter. "It's not great but it's okay for now I guess" she shrugged as I headed over to the dirty couch and looked around at the crumbling walls. "Do you want something to drink?" I shook my head and continued to stare at her as she made herself a cup of coffee.

Her hair feel over her face as she was looking down at the mug. She was wearing no makeup and her freckles were more prominent due to the increase in amount of sun in California than in Canada. Her eyes seemed a lot brighter than when she was at home and her figure was slimmer.

She clutched the warm cup of coffee in her hands as she sat next to me. She took a seat next to me and sipped on her coffee letting out a sigh as she savoured the taste. She then placed it down on the coffee table which was situated in an arms length of the couch.

"Shawn" she muttered again. "Why are you here?" She asked taking my hand in hers making sparks fly up my arm and towards my heart making it swell slightly. I looked deeply into her eyes and smiled.

"I came to find you" I beamed. She shook her head.

"I didn't want to be found, Shawn, I came here to escape. I came here to live free, go to the beach whenever I want, lay out in the sun without a care in the world and juts live my life. Pickering wasn't the place for me. It was too small"

It made sense y/n was extremely spontaneous and ached for adventure. She was right Pickering was too small for her large personality. She needed to be somewhere where she could be herself and enjoy her life, and this was the place for her but I couldn't help but be upset, I did love her after all.

"But you left clues-"

"I left them so you knew I was okay." She placed her hand on my cheek. "I'm happy here, it's everything I expected and I love it"

"but I, uh, i l-love you" I stuttered as I placed my hand on top of her. Her eyes softened and she ran her hands gently from my face down my chest and gripped a hold of my hand.

"How can you love me? You hardly know me."

"I do-"

"Shawn, I don't even know myself. I came here to discover who I am because right now I have no idea who I'm meant to be" I let out a sigh of frustration.

"I know you well enough to know that I'm totally, completely and utterly in love with you, the girl next door who I grew up with, the girl who brought me out of my shell, the girl who made me live life on the edge and the girl who took me on so many adventures that I have enough memories to last me for the rest of my days." I wiped her tears that had fallen and gently caressed her face. "I love you."

"Shawn..."

"I know, it's okay if you don't feel the same way" I said trying to react unaffected although my heart was breaking. "I just want you to come home, your family miss you."

She let out a sigh, I could tell she was tired. The dark bags under her eyes and her skin wasn't as bright as usual.

"Okay"

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I liked the idea of this but not how I wrote it, smh