Shawn Mendes Imagines

110- How Do You Love Me?

I stumbled towards the door and unlocked it. I rubbed my eyes and shawn was stood on my doorstep his hand sin his pocket and he was shuffling around on the spot.

We had been in a huge argument over the past couple over something stupid and I didn't expect to see him standing in my doorway, he was extremely stubborn.

"Uh- hey" I mumbled.

"Hi, can I come in a second?" I shrugged and opened the door wider allowing him to step into my house. He looked around before heading into the lounge where he took a seat.

"Drink?" I asked and he shook his head, no. I nodded and sat down opposite him. I rubbed my hands up and down my thoughts as we sat in silence.

"Listen, I'm sorry" he sighed. "It's just sometimes you wind me up. This guy, he doesn't deserve you. You always end up hurting when you're around him and you never feel good enough but you keep running back to him." He sighed. "Do you know how much that hurts me today we you like that?"

"Why? Why does it hurt you so much?"

"Because I love you"

"I know you love me bu-"

"NO! You don't get it." He shouted a little causing me to flinch. "I love you"

I clenched my eyes shut as dropped my head. The couch besides me sunk as Shawn sat next to me and he lifted my chin up. I opened my eyes and looked into his soft, hazel ones.

"I love you" it took a moment for me to reply.

"How can you love me when you don't even know me?" I spoke softly.

"How can you say I don't know you? For God sake, y/n, I've known you for the past 14 years of my life. I think I know you better than anyone else." His tone was the complete opposite of mine. His was loud and harsh whilst mine was quiet and soft.

"How can you say you know me, when I don't even know myself?!" I shouted to match his tone.

"I know you better than anyone else, I know how you hate it when click their fingers in public or when they run their hands over a piece of velvet. I know how you hate you body and the way your eyes crinkle at the side although I think that you're actually perfect. I love all those little things about you" he sighed. "You know what, this is stupid. Forget what happened, forget everything I said."

He turned on his heels and headed towards the door.

"Shawn wait-"

"No, I'm not going to force you into something you're obviously not ready for. Just call me when you are and I'll be here patiently waiting for you." And he was gone.