Shawn Mendes Imagines

174- the 'UGLY' friend

I sat, Indian style, in front of the large mirror which was balanced against my wall. I wiped the tears that had fallen and continued to stare at every flaw on my face.

God, why am I like this?

There was a knock on the door which caused me to jump up and pull a large hoodie over my body to cover me up. As I composed myself, Shawn walked into my bedroom. I turned away from him and wiped the left over tear trails.

"Hey, y/n." He greeted as he threw himself onto my bed, locked his ankles together and rested his hands behind his bed.

"Hey." I beamed, trying to sound enthusiastic and sending his a smile. His eyebrows pulled together as he eyed me curiously.

"What's wrong?" He asked. "You seem off."

"Nothing. Why would anything be wrong?"

"I don't know" he shrugged. "But your eyes are red, your cheeks are puffy and I can tell when you're lying because your ears go red, so you might as well me because let's face it, I'll find out anyway."

My eyes lingered on him for as long as his eyes lingered on me. His soft curls, laying messily against his forehead and his brown eyes tired from lack of sleep. He was so comfortable with himself; why can't I be the same?

I headed towards him and sat at his feet. I tugged at my bottom lip as I pondered over what to say to him.

"Would you date me?" I blurted.

"What?"

"If we were out in a club or a party, would you approach me? Would you want to be with me?" I explained. Shawn sat up and was now face to face with me. His eyes dropping to my fiddling hands.

"Why are you asking me this?" The tears swelled in my eyes. He wouldn't, I knew it.

"I knew you wouldn't." I said as I shook my head and jumped up from the bed. "Sorry for making this awkward."

"No." He leaped after me and grabbed my hand pulling me back to him. "I never gave you my answer, but I want to know why you're asking me this."

"I just, constantly feel like the ugly friend. Like boys only talk to me so they can get closer to Lauren and the others." My cheeks reddened as his eyes were fixed on my face. "I just feel like, like, nothing when they're around and I love them I do- but sometimes I wish they'd have days where they look like shit. Is that bad?"

He let out a laugh.

"No, you're allowed to feel that way but I don't get why you do. You're stunning, by far the most beautiful girls I have ever seen." My breathing hitched slightly as the fingers on his left hand intertwined with mine. "And I wish you would see what I see every time I look at you." His other hand twirling my hair between his fingers.

"Shawn-"

"I'm so in love with you." He paused. I felt like I was in one of those cheesy, teen love movies as we stared at each other not saying a word. "I really am."

"You don't have to say that just cause you feel as if you have too" I said as I tucked a piece of hair behind my ear.

"I'm not. I love you, I really do and I have for a while." He smiled sheepishly at me. "And if you gave me a chance, I would treat you the way you deserved to be treated, I would worship the ground you walk on and make you feel as beautiful as you are."

I let out a small laugh and wiped away my tears. My lips tugged into a smile as my heart swelled. My eyes trained on his lips as they also tugged into a smile as he moved closer to me and rested his forehead against mine. My eyes fluttered shut as his hand moved to caress my cheek.

"Can I kiss you?" He mumbled and I hummed in response. Quickly, his lips pressed firmly against mine and his arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer to him. My hands tangled in his hair and rested against his cheeks as our lips moved in sync against one another's.

"I love you." He said quietly as our lips parted. "You don't have to say it back, but I want you to know that I do. And you're not the 'UGLY' friend, cause you're the most beautiful of them all."

*****

This is how I feel with my friends cause they're absolutely stunning, it's unfair!

But, I GOT A NEW JOB. So basically, i hated my old job! It was a piece of shit and I also got treated like a piece of shit but my new job is something I've been wanting to do for a while.

So, I dress up as a Disney princess and go to children's parties and children's hospitals to meet children (obviously) and sing to them etc. And, because I'm fair with blue eyes, the main princesses I will be dressing up as are Cinderella, Aurora, Rapunzel, Ariel and
ANNA (Ariel and Anna are red haired soShawn HMU)

ALSO, 5 MINUTES TILL MY BOO IS 19 IN THE UK FML! I ENJOYED BEING THE SAME AGE AS HIM FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS BUT THEY'RE WILL BE ANOTHER UPDATE TOMORROW FOR HIS BDAY OFC

Love you all❤️