Barely Breathing//Ethis

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Ethan's point of view:

I wake up the next morning still laying on Chris' chest, the pain in my head and my ass being the first thing brought to my attention. Chris' arms are wrapped around me preventing me from moving, even if I wanted to I don't think I can.

I feel his lips kiss the top of my head and I know he's awake too.

"Morning Bub" he says in his morning voice that I love so much.

"Morning" I reply resting my chin on his chest and looking up at him

He runs one of his hands through my hair and I smile.

"I think we should get dressed." He says after a moment

"Yeah okay" I agree trying to push myself up to get off him.

Chris pulls back the covers and stands up. I watch him pick up his clothes and start to put them on, starting with his shirt. He puts on his boxers and pants and turns back to me and I smile at him again.

"You're so cute." He smiles coming to lie back down, on top of the covers this time.

"I suppose I have to get my clothes on too now" I sigh

He shrugs probably not caring if I do or don't.

"Could you help me?" I ask, trying not to feel embarrassed, he nods and sits back up.

I start to sit up and I grit my teeth through the pain. I finally stand up and Chris already has my clothes in his hands, the same ones from yesterday.

"Fuck-okay let's do this quickly" I wince, he helps me into my shirt and I hold onto his shoulders and he helps me steps into my boxers.

"You alright?" He asks as he pulls up my boxers

"Yeah, yeah"

"Do you wanna put some of my comfortable pants on?" He asks

"Please" I nod

He walks over to his wardrobe and takes out a pair of track pants. He quickly comes back over to me and helps me into them.

I lie back down on my stomach and sigh in relief.

I groan and hold my head as the headache intensifies.

"I don't ever want to drink again" I groan, Chris chuckles. I try to think back to what happened last night, why would anyone have let me keep drinking? I feel my eyes widen and I look up at Chris. "Did we use a condom?"

"No."

"Oh my god." I say under my breath

"Ethan?" Chris says confused

"Oh my god." I repeat again, feeling the tears prick the corners of my eyes

"Ethan, what's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" He asks and just hearing the words leave his mouth pulls at my heart strings.

I shake my head "Not you."

He's just looking at me now, expecting me to tell him why I'm getting so worked up, why I'm so upset. I can barely even look at him, he looks so concerned about me, so anxious, so loving. And I know I'm about to ruin that if I tell him.

"Chris-" I start, having to look away from him for only a moment "Chris I-I-"

I stop and just take a second to compose myself.

"You what?" He furrows his eyebrows still looking so concerned.

"I have... I have an STD."

He immediately takes a step back and his face has fallen.

"What?" He says quietly in disbelief as he just stares at me

He starts to pace around the room, he won't speak and he keeps running his hands through his hair.

"Chris?" I say quietly, needing him to say something

"I can't," he says "I can't be around you right now"

I wanted him to say anything but that.

"Chris please" before I even get to finish my sentence.

I get up and hobble after him, the pain in my ass getting worse and worse with each step. I have to stop and lean against the wall to rest for a minute.

"Chris!" I yell out, not knowing where he went "Chris come back!"

I'm met with silence and no Chris. I didn't even know I was holding back tears until they begin to fall down my cheeks. I continue to try and walk until I reach the stairs. I take a deep breath and hold onto the railing, I take a step down the first step and I almost have to stifle a scream it hurts that much.

"Chris" I choke out "I can't fucking walk, please"

I try to take another step but I have to stop. I can't do this. I hold myself up by the railing and just cry into my arm.

A few minutes pass and someone starts to walk up the stairs. I look up to see Chris standing a few steps down from me. His cheeks appear to be tear stained and his eyes slightly red hinting that he too, has been crying.

"I am s-so sorry" I cry looking him in the eyes

He doesn't say anything and instead he takes a few more steps up to me and bends down to pick me up. He scoops me up off my feet and carries me up the last few steps. He continues to carry me back to my room and he puts me down on my bed. He then takes a few steps back from me and runs a hand through his hair.

"Chris, I'm so sorry" I say again, I don't think I could say it enough "I know I should have told you, I planned to I really did but then I got drunk and there was never a right time to and I'm so so sorry."

He sighs and stares at me for a moment.

"Please say something" I bite my lip anxiously

"I'm in shock" he says finally, I nod feeling the same.

We fall silent again, I don't know what to say. I can't fix this with words, I don't think I can fix this at all.

"We could," I start, not really knowing where this sentence is going "we could get you tested."

"Yeah" he muses over the thought for a minute "I think that's a good idea."

A/N: I hate this chapter so much, I couldn't read more than a paragraph without rolling my eyes and cringing like this is disgusting I'm sorry okay rip

lol there's probably mistakes but it's whatever I'll fix it later yknow