Two Worlds Collide

Chapter 38

A/N: This chapter is going to be a bit longer than usual because things happen and I also need to cover Lily's birthday party. :) 

Maya POV

Today is January 15th. It's also my baby girls 6th birthday. This morning I woke up and took a pregnancy test that I had in my closet.  Sure enough the result was once again negative. I was starting to get frustrated. We have been trying since the end the end of November to have a baby and it just wasn't happening which baffled me considering how much sex me and Lucas have. I threw the test away and walked out of the bathroom trying to not cry. I didn't want Lily's birthday to be ruined because of me. She and Jordan were busy in her room so I went out to the kitchen to clean up for her birthday party. I cranked up the music and began cleaning not even caring that Lucas was watching TV about 10 feet away. I was in the middle of scrubbing the counter with a towel when I felt a hand stopping me from my scrubbing. I looked up to see Lucas standing there with a concerned look on his face.

"What's wrong?" he asked me.

"Nothing, is wrong." I said "Just let me clean."

"There is something clearly wrong, you're crying." he said and that was when I realized that I hadn't even realized I was crying.

I threw the towel on the counter and looked up at him "I took a pregnancy test and it was negative." I said and by this time I was sobbing.

"Maya, come with me." he said as he grabbed my hand pulled me over to the couch. "I want to talk to you for a minute."

I sat down beside him and cuddled into him as I cried on his chest "What?" I sniffled.

"Maya, first of all you need to look at me." he said and so I sat up and looked at him as I wiped the tears away. "This is only what the second or third pregnancy test that you have taken? We're going to try until we have a baby and if it doesn't happen the regular way then we look at other options."

"But I just don't understand why it happened so easy with Lily." I sniffled.

"Well sometimes things just happen. We are going to have a baby one way or another. " he said to me.

"But I just don't want to disappoint you."

"You could never. I love you and I'll always be with you through everything even if we do have to look at other options." he said with a smile and this was honestly why I loved him so much.

"Do you know how amazing it would be to carry your baby? Our little baby and the thought of possibly not being able to do that frightens me." 

"And I want that to happen more than anything in this world but you can't think negative about it. I love you. We are in this together. You got to get yourself together because we have Lily's party soon."

"I guess you're right. You won't leave me if things get tough will you?I couldn't bare it. "I sniffled.

"I'm here forever no matter how tough things get. You have to stop worrying about that so much." he replied.

"It stems from my dad leaving when I was younger." I replied.

"I know. Chin up, beautiful, I don't like seeing you sad and the kids need their Mommy to be happy." he answered.

I'm glad I talked to Lucas because once again he was always right. Once I calmed myself down I went to do the rest of the cleaning. I made Lily get a bath and then I put cute pig tails in her hair. She was so excited for her party. Lucas and I got her a My Little Pony castle and a bunch of dress up clothes. We were excited for her to open her presents. Lucas helped me decorate and then soon people started showing up.