love within distance

chapter 37: road trip

It's been going on 2 weeks since I've officially graduated from high school and to be honest it feels AMAZING! Just knowing I'm one step closer to my life goals feels great, soon enough I'll be a doctor...okay so maybe not soon and more so in like 7 years but hey it's still exciting! "Babe are you all packed and ready?" Nick asks me as he walks into my room. "Yeah, let me just get my bathing suit and toothbrush." I inform him. "Okay, casey is already outside waiting. We will all be meeting up at waide's house. Him and Aubrey are there and Michelle and Jess are on their way there now then we'll head out" nick gives me the run down. "Did waide get the rental car?" I question "yes..it's I guess an suv so it's big enough for all of us and our stuff" nick answers. "Great!" I reply. Today is the day we head off to California, the night of my graduation we were all drinking and that's when the plan had come about and to be honest I didn't think we were being serious but sure enough here we are fixing to leave and I'm excited...A road trip to California with my favorite people, what more could I want? "Alright, I'm ready let's a gooo!" I holler. Nick laughs, which makes me smile even more so then I already was. "Bye momma I love you" I tell my mom before giving her a hug and kiss goodbye "Alright hun I love you too be safe, have fun!" She tells me. "And nick..." She says stopping him and I dead in our tracks. "Take care of my girls okay? And I love you aswell" she adds. A heart warming smile appears on his face "I won't let anything happen to neither one of them..I promise! I love you too...mom inlaw. we will see you in 2 weeks." he reassures her before we both walk out the front door I smile silly at the words my mom and him just shared. So sweet! "About time, I feel like I've waited on you for hours...always waiting on you Kristen I swear" casey says to me laughing. "Try like 10 minutes casey but yes you always do and always will it's part of the big sister roll and as me being the little sister I am just playing my roll doing my job and keeping you awaiting for me" I tell her laughing. We all laugh at that point as we get into nicks car. "You said bye to mom right? And you have everything you need in your bag?" I ask casey before we pull out of the drive way "well duh of course I said bye and yes everything I need is in here...I thought I was supposed to be asking you those questions?" She answers me. I just roll my eyes "well I guess I beat you to it...I was just double checking" I respond. "Well are we all ready?" Nick asks. We nod in return, giving nick the okay to head over to waide's....

*Waide's house*

We finally pull up to waide's house and I'm amazed...he lives on his own which I knew but I never would have thought he'd live in such a nice little house in what seems to be a decent family oriented neighborhood, I would have thought he'd live in some small apartment complex or something it's actually kind of cute and makes me wonder when Aubrey and him will take the next step and live together with that thought in mind I look at nick...I wonder when him and I will live together? That thought alone makes my heart smile, I'm so lost in thought  I didn't even realize nick was staring back at me until he places a hand gently on my thigh, with a small soft smile on his face "you getting excited babe?" He asks me his words coming out so sweet with that small soft smile still visible and his eyes looking into mine with pure love and innocence. My heart can not help but to leap I smile "very" I tell him before taking his hand that is on my thigh and placing it into my own hand. He laces are fingers together and I give him a quick but passionate kiss on the lips "you two are a little too cute together sometimes" casey comments in the backseat I giggle. "So ummm can you unlock the door now so I don't have to witness this any longer?" She asks, nick laughs "oh damn I'm sorry" he apologizes. I bite my bottom lip trying not to laugh.
"Hey casey...I'm sure we could fit one more person if you want to invite anyone, I'm sure no one would mind" I tell her. She looks at me puzzled for a minute "hmmm..okay I might...when are we heading out?" She says "in about an hour or so" I tell. "Alright cool" She says before swiftly gliding out the backseat. Nick looks at me a bit confused..."I think she's talking to someone and I figured since everyone is coupled up she would want someone too, so she doesn't feel like a third wheel" I inform him "Yeah I didn't even think about how everyone is coupled up...good idea babe that was sweet to do" nick tells me. "Thanks I just wish I would have thought of the idea  sooner rather than later...I just hope she can get someone to come along" I tell him truthfully before opening my door and getting out. "Hey guys" I greet Aubrey and waide as I'm walking up "sup" waide says his arms casually wrapped around Aubrey "hey" Aubrey says excitedly before unraveling from waide to give me a hug "casey was just telling us you said she could invite someone to come along...good idea" She tells me "dude waide you didn't rent an suv you rented a bus bro...that thing is huge" nick says out loud looking over at the rental. We all laugh "I know but it's perfect and surprisingly enough it's good on gas, so they said anyways" he informs us "any word from Michelle and Jesse?" I question... "Yeah they should be here shortly" Aubrey says. "Yeah they probably wanted to fuck one good time before being in the car together for that long and not being able to get freaky" waide says. Aubrey slaps his chest "that's my sister" She exclaims. My face scrunched in horror at the thought now don't get me wrong I know they're probably doing it and that's okay and there's nothing wrong with having sex I'm totally fine with that as well I just don't want to picture one of my friends having sex...it's desturbing. nick laughs "I have no doubt in my mind that's what they're doing, I would be too if Kristen and I.." nick starts to say but I cut him off " if what? If we were having sex? oh really and who's fault is it that we aren't? Because you could be having sex too right now and you know that" I admit rolling my eyes annoyed...he's the reason we haven't done it yet! "Awe babe come on that's not what I meant" he says to me before reaching out to grab me but I shewed him away "dont" I tell before walking away from him. Feeling his eyes on me as I do so..it takes everything in me not to look back at him...I know he didn't mean it the way it came out but don't sit there and make a comment like that when you're the reason we haven't had sex yet, I know he loves me and I know he wants to have sex with me but he also wants to make sure I'm ready and I think that's why I'm so annoyed by it because I feel ready and I don't know why he doesn't see that and I don't know why he makes us having sex such a big deal, yeah okay so he'd be taking my virginity I get that's a big deal but come on already! As silly as it is I can't help but to be a little hurt by that stupid ass comment..."Hey you okay?.." Aubrey says walking up behind me. "I'm fine" I tell her truthfully...I am fine I'm just being overly sensitive that's all.
"Just being overly sensitive" I tell her my exact thoughts. "You know he didn't mean it like that" Aubrey defend him. I smile lightly "Yeah I know" I tell her. "Okay good" She says smiling at me in releif......."So tell me something.." I begin "What?" Aubrey replies curiously "did you and waide have sex before we got here?" I ask she laughs "umm yeah...like 4 times" She admits to me. I couldn't help but laugh at her pure honesty "no shame" She says proudly...yep this is why we're best friends! "Kristen..." I hear nicks voice from behind me. I turn to face him a shiver crawlsdown my spine as I meet his gaze. "I'll leave you two to kiss and make up now" Aubrey says gladly before walking away. I suddenly couldn't stare into his eyes any longer without feeling slightly embarrassed about my reaction. Which he notices.... "kristen, please look at me.." he pleads before taking a step closer to me, once I'm in reaching distance he takes his hand and gently lifts my chin up to meet his gaze.."please.." he begs and my chest hurts...feeling nothing but guilt over how I reacted to his comment... "listen I didn't mean it like how it sounded and looking back now I shouldn't have said it like that or at all because our sex life isn't anyone's business" he begins "HA" I laugh humorlessly "What sex life?" I commented. "Kristen what I meant back there was if we were having sex I would have had to do you a good few times before getting in a vehicle with you for that long...I just know I would have been tortured if not..it's already hard keeping it together when I'm with you, there are times I just want to do nothing but kiss you and I only mean that in a good way, I know I'm the reason we haven't had sex yet and I was not at all blaming you for that I was just stating that if we were having sex that I'd be having to do the same thing because I'd have a hard time being in a car with you for that long and not getting sexual with you..and to make things clear with your whole what sex life comment okay so we may not be having sex yet but is it really anyone's business if we are or not? I love you with all my heart Kristen and I'm sorry that my comment came out the way it did" he tells me... "I should be the one apologizing, I know I over reacted towards your comment. I knew what you meant when you said it but everyone else wouldn't have and it's just frustrating because I am ready... I love you and I'm ready to have you in every single way possible both emotionally and physically I want to have you in every way. I know I have you emotionally but nick I need you physically too..." I admit to him "Okay baby" nick says but that's all he says before he takes my hand, locking our fingers together and walking back to everyone...seriously that's all he had to say was okay? Ughhh don't get annoyed just let it be...nick must have noticed my mood was still slightly bad because he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed the top of my head "I love you kristen" He whispers in my ear. I smile instantly... ok my mood is good again..