Prison Diary

Welcome To Redemption

Month: June Day:19 Year: 2090

Time: 6:10

Dear Prison Diary,

My heart broke.

It had felt like she just told me to go and die but I knew that she was only saying it out of anger.

'She doesn't mean that. She doesn't mean that' I kept telling myself in my head.

Violet started to walk away, towards the cell but I quickly ran around the table to stop her. I grabbed her arm and pulled her back while tears kept spilling from my eyes.

She didn't turn around but she didn't keep walking either. She only stood there with her back turned to me. Nothing but silence coming from her.

Other prisoners were watching and I knew they had heard what I had said. It was obvious on their shocked faces. 

I took a small step forward towards her and heard her take in a breath.

"D-Don't walk away Violet. I-It was a m-mistake." I managed to whimper out, my voice cracking. I stared at the back of her head with glassy eyes trying to make her see that I was truly sorry for what I said, and that I mentioned it out loud in front of the prisoners.

From the corner of my eye I could see that Layna and Skunk were still watching, both of their mouths agape as they heard what I said about Violet. Of course I hadn't told Skunk but I hadn't even told Layna. Layna who was my dear little sister. The girl I told all secrets to and she told me all hers. I hadn't even told her about Violet's tantrums at night because I knew that Violet trusted me with a secret. Me of all people! And I let her down...

She turned around slowly, pulling her arm from mine sharply. Her eyes stared back at me with only one thing in them.

Hate.

"It was a mistake?" She asked me softly, her eyebrows furrowed and her hands clenched at her sides. She neared me, taking her time, walking slowly across the cold metal floor.

"It.Was.A.Mistake?!" She repeated the question, pronouncing every single syllable through clenched teeth. Her voice grew stern and angry tears started sliding from her eyes. I could tell that even though she was asking the question, she didn't really want an answer.

I nodded my head quickly up and down while licking my lips, tasting the salty tears. They just kept falling and falling as I realized how upset she was.
"It wasn't a mistake! You wanna know what was a mistake?!" She asked me, still not expecting an answer. "That kiss was a mistake and you were a mistake! Us being cellmates was a mistake! Me, trusting you was a mistake!!" She yelled into my face, her voice cracking as tears slid down her pale cheeks and down to her chin. Looking into her eyes I saw something else. She wasnt only angry, she was hurt.

I flinched closing my eyes, shaking my head back and forth, not wanting to see that in her eyes.

"N-No no Violet p-please stop."" I begged her while crying. Listening to her, every single word shoving that knife in deeper into me. I tried to reach for her hands but she snatched them away. She walked around me and stood on the other side. I turned around to look at her.

"But don't you worry." She said softly and I looked up at her, with a twinge of hope.

"I'm not making anymore mistakes...I'm never trusting you again." She declared sternly, her absolute and final statement. She said it all while staring me right in my eyes for one moment and then finally shoving passed me on her way back to the cell.

I could hear her feet hitting the floor quickly as she rushed to get away from me.

The knife that she had been stabbing through my heart finally killed me...