Prison Diary

Welcome To My Chill Pill

Month: June Day:11 Year: 2090

Time: 6:15

Dear Prison Diary,

Have you ever been so angry that you suddenly became extremely calm?

I know. That makes no sense but that was exactly what I was feeling.

Do you want to know what I called it?

Do you really want to know what I called it?

Okay. I called it a delicate rage.

I looked up and I saw Violet still standing there staring at me like I had just grown two more heads. Previously she was standing there staring down at a small cockroach that was trying to crawl by her but she kept stopping it with her foot.

I told her that she was being gross and she told me that she would pick it up and throw it at me. After she said that I shut my mouth.

Apparently Violet felt that she needed to break the silence that she created so she calmly told me as if not expecting a reaction:

"I wonder how Layna is handling Skunk being her cellmate..." As she said this she finally decided to step on the cockroach and I ignored the sound of its crunching body and slowly turned my head towards her.

My mind was silently hoping that I had heard something else. Actually, my mind was begging me to have heard something else.

"I'm sorry......what?" I asked her barely a whisper because my voice seemed to have left me along with my hearing.

"I said I wonder how Layna is handling Skunk being her cellmate." She said once again just as calmly and twisted her foot from side to side crushing the poor cockroach's body even more.

I stared at this girl long and hard studying her face trying to detect any hint of deceitfulness, any hint of sarcasm, or any hint of amusement but obviously I didn't find one hint of anything. Violet was, like always, completely serious. Still I was so desperate I had to ask again.

"O-One more time?" I asked her my voice going up a pitch. Good that means it was coming back but it was only reduced to an uneven and croaking sound.

Violet finally looked back at me drifting her attention away from her torture victim to me. She looked slightly annoyed although it might not be because of me it could be because the cockroach was still twitching. Much like Violet's eyebrow.

"You need a hearing aid or something? Layna. Skunk. Alone. Cell. Together. Clean the shit outta your ears!" She shouted at me obviously annoyed and looked back down at the cockroach and finally stomped on it killing it ruthlessly.

Now that I finally understood and I knew I hadn't lost my hearing I will now bring us back to the delicate rage I was feeling.

That delicate rage caused the corners of my mouth to turn up and my fingers to start twitching and my face to turn red. I probably looked like a ticking time bomb about to go off any second but no did not happen.

I needed to handle it calmly. I needed to stop acting immediately on impulse and think about things for a second. I needed to stop assuming certain things and take a minute to really look at the situation carefully and just take a deep breath.

"She's going to kill her!" I yelled out loudly and stood up running towards the cell door peaking my face out of the bars.

I shook the bars as hard as I could making them shake a little but obviously not enough to break free so I could save my sister. No, those bars were made of pure steel and were not about to become brittle so I could snap them like twigs and hop through the hole.