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Angel {Zarry} 1/2

It's not easy, constantly being told by Modest! that I can't be with my boyfriend. I makes life difficult. It adds to the pressure of being in the biggest boy band in the world. Hiding my sexuality was easy at first, then people started noticing me staring at Louis, thinking I liked him. Don't get me wrong, he's amazing and I love him but he's also my best friend.

They gave us a choice. Hide or quit.

So, we hid. For almost four long years, I've had to stop myself kissing Zayn or whispering in my ear. Modest! have even given me and Zayn fake girlfriends. Louis, Niall and Liam are always supportive but for the past two weeks, things haven't been going well with me and Zayn. No matter what I try, he wont talk to me and it's breaking my heart.

*

"Morning babe." I smiled, trying to get his attention. He grunted, keeping his back to me. I stared at Louis, only getting a worried look back.

"So guys, we got a photos hoot soon. Oh, and Harry, Simon called.." Liam's smile vanished when he mentioned Simon. 

"And?" Niall coaxed Liam on to follow. Louis was standing closer to me now but he was still looking at Zayn. 

"You need to go on a date.. With Kendall." Liam's facial expression didn't show any emotion. He looked pained to say it. 

I felt Louis grab my hand and squeeze it. I looked at him, giving off a fake smile. Zayn stormed out the room. Hearing the bathroom door slam, Niall and Liam sighed, going into the lounge to watch the news probably. 

Louis gave me a 'Go talk to him' look. I nodded, gave Louis a hug and ran up the stairs to the bathroom where I guessed Zayn was.

*

It was too much. They were making my boyfriend go on another date with her.

He doesn't want you any more Zayn. That's why he agrees to go on them.

The voice in my head was back. Not that it ever left anyway.  

If Harry loved you, he would fight for your relationship.

"Babe?" Harry's voice interrupted my thoughts. I sighed, getting off the side of the bath and opened the door. 

Green eyes were staring at me. Every time I look into them, I feel myself falling deeper and deeper in love with him and as hard as I try, I can't stop but get jealous every time they take him away from me. 

"Zayn?" 

"What?"

"Why don't you love me any more?" his voice came out in a broken whisper. The light was dim, as I had the blinds down and I didn't turn the light on but I could see his eyes shining, like he was seconds away from crying. 

"I..-"

"I knew it! You hate me. I'm in love with you Zayn and you don't even want me any more! Why? Am I not good enough for you now? Has Modest! finally turned you against me?" Harry rambled on but I couldn't get my brain to function. I couldn't get any words out. I could just stand there and watch Harry scream at me about how I don't love him any more.

"Answer me!" his voice was cracking, I was begging my brain to let him know how much I love him but nothing. Just the sight of Harry breaking down in tears, running out the room, running out the house, possibly running out of my life.

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Updated March 2016