Grow Old Without You (A Camren Story)

Bullies

Grow Old Without You (Chapter 57)

Camila

We spent the whole day inside our LA home. Tomorrow, I'll be flying to Jordan, and no one is really happy about it. Lauren was scowling every time Aleppo was mentioned, and knowing the twins wanted to tie me up the bed is actually making me doubt my decisions.

"Girls, please be good to Mommy, okay?" I said as the twins were all cuddled up to my side of the bed.

"We're always good for Mommy." Kara answered as Lauren rolled her eyes.

"If answering back and rolling their eyes is their definition of being good, then they are perfect in that matter." Lauren said as the girls laughed.

"Don't be a pain in mommy's butt." I laughed as Lauren playfully glared at me.

"Take care over there, Camzi. We want you here in one piece, in 4 days."

"And please, Mama, please please make sure you call us before bed. We would want to say goodnight everytime." Kara said sweetly as I nodded my head and kissed her nose.

"I promise to call everynight, at exactly 8 pm Miami time." I smiled at them as I felt tears welling up my eyes. Why am I so emotional?

"Mama don't cry." Lana said as she nuzzled her face on my neck, her arms tightening on my torso.

"I'm just going to miss you guys." That was the only excuse I came up with. Lauren reached out to wipe my tears as she just smiled at me and the girls.

"Time for bed, babies." Lauren whispered as the twins groaned simultaneously. "I would want to spend time with Mama too, you know." Lauren laughed as the twins shook their heads.

"Come on girls. Mommy and I still have to talk about alot of things before I leave tomorrow." I said as the twins both squeezed their bodies to me, not wanting to let go.

"1 more hour." Kara whispered.

Lauren and I didn't spend the whole night talking, and when the time came I had to get ready for my flight, I was so tired, I was already planning on rescheduling my flight.

"Love, you can sleep on the way there." Lauren said pushing me to the bathroom as we showered together, making sure I was standing and not falling down the entire time. "Make sure you take your vitamins, and drink plenty of water when you're there. Before you take care of other people, make sure you take care of yourself first." Lauren said as she shampooed my hair.

"Okay." I said softly, as Lauren rinsed her hands, pulling me closer to her body.

"Are you listening to me, love?" She asked me as I just nodded my head. I feel sad for leaving, that I couldn't really act upon my emotions. "Take care of yourself there. I'm too far away to force feed you, or to remind you to eat or drink."

"I know."

"Call us, if you have time. I know you don't have that much time, but still, please try and send us a message, that you're still alive and safe."

"Okay."

"And pray. You will be fine over there, baby." Lauren finally finished her speech about taking care of my self. She turned my body to face her as her fave showed worry. "Baby, why are you crying?"

I was crying? I guess I was.

"I'm scared. That I won't do anyone justice. That I wouldn't help everyone, and people will get mad at me for not giving the donations." I said as Lauren pulled me to her chest as I sobbed.