Grow Old Without You (A Camren Story)

Not Your Fault

Grow Old Without You (Chapter 30)

KARA

It's been 3 days. Lana hasn't talked in 3 days. All she does is nod her head, shake her head, look into my eyes and sigh. I miss her. I miss hearing her laugh, or tell me about some random things, or just weird theories she's been making up. I miss just being silly with her, and I miss her sassiness. It's like she isn't here.

Mommy hasn't woken up yet, and all the waiting has us worried. Aunt Keana has been irritable, mainly 'cos she's been fixing all the legal things that has everything to do with Justin. She's also trying take care of us, entertain the Abuelos and Abuelas and steer us away from the media. To top everything off, Iñigo just arrived today, which added to Aunt Kea's stress.

"Cosa stai facendo qui? (What are you doing here?)" Oh. Aunt Kea's mad.

"Questo è Lauren stavano parlando. Ed è stato il mio bambino. Naturalmente io sono qui. (This is Lauren were talking about. And it was my child. Ofcourse I'm here.)" Inigo said sighing and sitting on the ground. He looked upset, and he was trying to calm himself down.

Lana looked at me as we watched Inigo look down at his hands. She didn't understand a single thing Aunt Kea and Inigo said. Aunt Kea sat beside him, patting his knee.

"She was happy when she discovered she was pregnant. She was already picking names, and looking for furniture." Aunt Kea said softly. "She was happy, so so happy. And I'm sorry if I had to keep things from you. She was finally happy, and I don't want to ruin anything that makes her smile, and laugh, like how she does everytime she's with you. She loved you, dearly."

I never thought I would see Iñigo cry, but the past few days has been hard on everyone. Iñigo's a good guy, and he loved Mommy dearly. I just didn't want anyone else other than Mama with Mommy, so I had this hatred on him. Now, I'm realizing he wasn't bad after all. Mommy wouldn't choose anyone that would harm me, or anyone that wouldn't accept me. It was my fault for not accepting him as Mommy's boyfriend.

I've seen so many people cry the past few days. Aunt Kea broke down yesterday. She was really frustrated with the new bodyguards for not knowing where we went. The other day, Grandma was crying. And so was Gramps. Aunt Ally also cried, but I know that she's very emotional. She was talking to Abuela Sinu on the phone about Mama. She said that Mama is good, and she can't have visitors until the second week she's in there. I can't wait to see Mama.

For the past three days, all I did was read a book, and make sure Lana was okay. Well, truthfully, Lana is not okay. She hasn't been okay, and I don't want to force her to tell me things she's not ready to tell. I want to know what happened, but I can't ask anyone about it. I want to know what happened in there that did this to Lana.

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KEANA

"I'm sorry." I heard someone say as both Iñigo and I looked up to see Kara in front of us.

"Darlin--"

"I'm sorry for being rude, and ungrateful. I didn't treat you right, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that Mommy lost the baby--"

"It's not your fault. It's no one's fault. Shhh." Iñigo pulled Kara to his lap as Kara broke down to his chest. "Everything's gonna be okay, love."

I felt Lana sit on my lap, as she had tears threatening to fall down her eyes. Her lips are quivering as I kissed her head, putting my arms around her body. And right on cue, her body began to shake as I felt my heart break for my best -friends kids. I wish Lauren was here. Come on, Lo. Wake up. I can't do this. Please wake up.

"Everything will be okay." Iñigo whispered as she rubbed Lana's back too, trying to calm the twins down.

We went inside the room, trying to put the tired twins on the couch for a nap, but Kara didn't want to let go of Iñigo, so he laid down as the twins cuddled to him, squishing their faces to his chest. I wish Lo could see this. She would be so happy.