Grow Old Without You (A Camren Story)

Can We Talk?

Grow Old Without You (Chapter 48)

LAUREN

When Camila strummed that all too familiar song, it brought me back to the first we kissed. Her first kiss. She sang me this exact same song she's playing right now, and it made me feel like I was on top on the world again. Dinah, Mani and Ally were gushing, because they know how much this song means to Camila and I, and it was like we were young carefree again, without problems to worry about.

I couldn't control myself. It was like my legs had a mind of their own, and the next thing I know, I was kissing Camila. Full on kissing, and she wasn't holding back.

I pull out from the kiss and stare into her eyes. She was beaming, like she won the lottery. I on the other don't know what my face was showing, but I could feel my cheeks hurting. Am I smiling like an idiot? I guess so.

"I love you, Lo." She whispered staring at my lips again as I smiled, getting the opportunity to kiss her forehead.

"I love you too, Camzi." I said, walking to my chair slightly covering my face from all the cheers our family and friends were doing. It's like they won the lottery. The hell.

"Damn Jauregui, getting at it!" Dinah said pushing my arm playfully.

"She's getting something tonight, for sure!" It was Mani's turn now as I felt my cheeks burn.

"Hey, stop turning Lauren into a tomato!" My mom scolded everyone from the table as I shook my head.

"Did you get everything on tape, little L? Post it on the Gram and let everyone know that Camren is real." Dinah said tapping on Lana's phone screen.

"Are you sure that's appropriate Aunt Dinah?" Kara asked as everyone on the table giggled.

"Well, were not posting something pornographic, are we?" Dinah said flipping her hair as I almost threw my glass in her direction.

"What is pornographic Mommy?" Kara asked innocently as every single one on the table looked at me and laughed quietly.

"Kar, we can look it up. Google." Lana rolled her eyes as I tried to stop my little one from searching that specific word, but I felt someone's arms around mine. And that shampoo smells familiar.

"Did you like it?" She whispered on my ears as I nodded my head.

"Ofcourse I did. That's our song." I smiled, looking at her as she nodded her head.

"Oh my gosh! Aunt DJ!" I heard Lana screech beside me. I guess she already googled the word.

"How can I unsee that?!" Kara said covering her eyes, putting hear head between her legs. Oh my kids. Still so young.

"What's happening?" Camila asked me, as I giggled.

"Dinah said pornographic. The twins wanted to know what that word meant. Google happened." I explained shrugging my shoulders as Camila's face softened.

"My poor babies." She said as she walked to Kara kissing her head. "You can't un-see that love, but do you know what happens now that you've seen a glimpse of it?" Camila asked, getting the attention of Lana.

"What?"

"The talk." Camila smirked as I shook my head. Hell no.

"They are too young, Camila!" I said, standing up from my chair. "They just turned 11 for crying out loud!"

"If we start them early, guess who's not going to be a grandma sooner? Us!" Camila said logically as I shook my head. My babies. No.

"They don't even have their crush and stuff." I groaned as Lana jumped off her chair and ran to me.

"Mommy!! Kara has a crush! It's--" Ofcourse, Kara was already behind her, covering her mouth.

"Lana! Twin code!" Kara said groaning as she try to put down her twin sister, but ofcourse, she's the younger twin.

I am so happy.

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A couple of hours later, we went home. The mothers rented out a hotel room for them, wanting to go to the spa in the morning. Ally, Mani and Dinah were the first ones to crash in their rooms, as Camz and I brought the twins to bed.

"You know Mommy, this is the first time you're tucking us to bed, together." Kara smiled as she lied down the bed, pulling the covers up her chin.

"It wouldn't be the last, pumpkin." Camz said kissing Kara's head.

"Thank you for the best birthday in forever." Lana whispered, getting herself settled in the bed beside her sister.

"You deserve these babies. We'll make sure you always spend your birthdays together. I promise you girls that." I whispered, smiling at them softly.

"I can't believe I met Taylor Swift." Kara whispered.

"Believe it Sestra. Believe it." Lana said closing her eyes. "Goodnight parents. I love you."

"Love you Sassy Pants." I said kissing Lana's head. "Love you baby." I kissed Kara's as Camz did the same to the twins.

Camz and I walked to our shared room as I slowly took off my shoes and the top I was wearing. I am freaking exhausted, and I just want to sleep. I looked up at Camila, as she looked nervous. Oh.

"No Camz. It's not like that I swear. I'm just tired and I just wanted to jump on the bed and sleep. I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable." I said as she nodded her head, breathing out. "I promised I won't do anything that would make you uncomfortable. I'm really sorry. That was insensitive of me." I said again.

"It's okay." She said sitting on the bed. "Can we talk?" She asked nervously as she played on her fingers.

Oh God.

"Yeah ofcourse." I said sitting on the bed beside her. I made sure I wasn't near, or wasnt too far. "What are we talking about?" I actually know what, but I hope it's not it.

"Why'd you kiss me?" She asked bluntly as I couldn't help but choke in my own spit. The fuck Camila. I coughed so hard, like my lungs would come out of my mouth.

"I-It was the song. And the memories kept kept coming." I sighed. "I- I'm really sorry for my actions today, and last night. I feel like you see me as this freaking horny person trying to get in your pants. Which I clearly am trying to control."

"You want to sleep with me?" She asked with a straight face.

"You should know my answer Camz. I mean I kinda married you, and you know how I feel about your bo--"

"Okay Lauren." She said covering my mouth with her hand.

"I'm sorry." I giggled as she took her hand off my mouth. "I didn't mean to step on some boudari--"

I wasn't able to finish my sentence when I felt her soft lips on mine. This day couldn't get any better.

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I woke up the next day with a brunette snuggled on my side. Nothing happened last night, I mean nothing that would step on Camila's comfort zone. After the kiss we just cuddled, and talked, and maybe kissed some more. Okay, we kissed alot, like how we were back then.

I tried to get off the bed, but Camila had her arms and legs around me.

"Lauren Michelle Jauregui. Sleep is good." She said without even opening her eyes.

"Karla. I need to fucking pee." I muttered as I heard her giggle and pulling off her body off of me. "Gracias Mi Amor!" I screamed running to the bathroom.

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CAMILA

I feel like I'm 15 again, kissing and cuddling with Lauren. Don't get me wrong, I'd really want to Marvin Gaye and just get it on with Lauren, but I'm scared that I'd suck. Oh god. This was also my insecurity the first time we made love, and it's just stupid I'm saying these same exact things almost 2 decades after.

"We're meeting the lawyers for the trial today, love. We have to make sure we win this thing okay?"

Oh.

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