Heartbreaker BOOK 2 after irresistible #COMPLETED

Chapter 10- Deep in the Feels

I don't know what it was but I had an unsettling feeling in my stomach. Yes, Damien Franco made me sick to the stomach. I tried to smile at Daniel as he walked towards me leaning in for a kiss but I turned my head shaking it as I walked away.

"Ouch, what's up Z?", he looked concerned rather than pissed that I had rejected his kiss.

"Nothing, I just feel sick I need some fresh air", I grabbed my jacket and walked out as I put my hands into the pocket shivering as the cold wind hit my body. It was like the weather was forshadowing my mood. All those years of moving on and the building rise of hatred for Damien had grown yet a small part of me knew I still loved the heartbreaker.

It was so ironic I mean when we call people players, then realise that they were probably fucked over by someone else who was also fucked over by someone else it was a never ending cycle and now I was in the middle of it.

I walked to the place where somehow Damien had managed to find, like seriously, he must have stalked me to find the unusual but peaceful place. My breath drew ice as I walked towards the view of the sunset and the familiar muscular player who sat there with a bottle of whiskey and a ciggeratte.

Seriously? Again? I'd seriously have to find another place to think as I scowled walking the other direction.

-"You can stay", he said, sounding quieter and less sarcastic the normal, he sounded... sincere? Tired even and he blew out the smoke into the cold wind, the smoke seemed to somewhat hypnotise me as it danced around the air as if it had a mind of its own.

Wait-

"Are you smoking weed?", I raised my eyebrow slight choking at the smoke that once hypnotise me, now making me choke slightly.

Damien laughed as he lifted it up to my reach. I hesitated but then shrugged place my self down next to me and I take it from his cold hands. Hands that once felt so gentle now felt, rough.

Okay girl you need to chill with the sappiness. I inhaled the smoke closing my eyes as it calmed the inside of me making me feel more confident for some reason. Passing the ciggeratte back to him I stared at the orange sunset and the purple and pink sky admiring it's colors I breathed in turning to Damien then realising he was already staring at me.

"Damien what the fuck are you staring at?", I snapped as I scowled at him making him slightly taken aback. I felt my walls suddenly being built up again as I looked back towards the sunset and breathed out.

"Look", I calmed down a little bit trying to figure out what words to say to him, why was he making me feel so.. so vulnerable?

"Zara, again, listen, I am a dickhead the biggest player, I always have been and then you came along with your stupid ass bet and I fell in love, the fucking player fell in love with nerdy ass girl. Maybe it was a bet to you but to me I actually loved you. You broke me", his voice broke a little making me slightly surprised but he then composed himself and continued;

"I let you in, only you in and then I found out it was all a lie just a bet so I reacted how a true player acted and I got my revenge, the most fucked up revenge. I thought it would make myself feel better make it even but I took away something precious and I messed up so badly", he paused.

"Zara, I thought it would make me feel better but it made me feel worse, I was so lost so confused and I acted out in the worse way possible. I know you won't ever forgive me and I get it I do, but I just wanted to let you know I'm sorry, I really am. In all honesty though you don't know the real story— The real truth behind it all and maybe one day I'll be able to tell you but I can't know. Maybe I can't ever but I just want to say I'm sorry for hurting you and leaving you alone after taking away something important",

My heart beat was beating more rapidly as I took in the words he said to me. I didn't understand what he meant how I didn't know the real truth but it was weird that this time he sounded sincere, this time...

"Zara say something", he pleaded cutting me from my thoughts. A throbbing pain was building at the centre of my temple as I looked at him.

"You fucked me over in away even the devil was probably shocked at how cruel you were, you took my virgin-", my voice broke and I felt the warm tears falling down my cheeks as I took a deep breath and continued.

"You took my virginity then left me, why now? Why are you apologising now? After 2 years? You had all that time to confront me. You could have spoken to me been angry but you broke me, you broke me so much Franco".

I looked at his beautiful green emerald eyes and I saw the guilt all over his face. " I don't trust you at all, in fact I hate you, but I'm sorry too, I'm sorry for lying to you and hurting you and breaking you. I guess we broke eachother, I really did love you Franco, I wanted to tell you but I was so scared you'd hate me but you more than hated me. I'm so sorry for making you hate me to the point you thought it was okay to take someone's virginity out of revenge. I wanted to show you how it felt to be used and hurt but I fell for you hard. I'm sorry that we even met. I'm sorry I loved you. I'm sorry that we both broke eachothers hearts. I'm sorr-"

Before I could even continue he had grabbed my face and his lips were on mine as I tasted the sweet flavour of his lips that I had been so hungry for so-

Wait.

Realising what was happening I quickly pushed him away, "I gotta go, I can't do this", I couldn't look him in the face I was to scared to fall into his trap again, why was he making me feel this way after everything.

Maybe I felt guilty too, maybe I was more of a heartbreaker than he was? I walked away as I felt the tears streaming down my face. Fuck, Bennett cry me a river.

OMFG I'm sorry I haven't posted in a long time so I decided to give you guys a long chapter hope you guys enjoyed the DRAMA. COTE ME. What do you  think will happen next?