Steve Rogers Imagines

Please Don't Ever Leave Me

 "Fury how the hell could you ask this of me!" I yell staring down the man with the eyepatch, "it can't be any of the other avengers it has to be you!" he explains back in a steely tone. "so you are literally asking me to die!" I glare at him pacing back and forth in front of the desk where he sat, he stands and makes his way to block my pacing "not die, just let HYDRA think you are dead, for a month or so" he says. I shake my head at this, I couldn't do this not to the team "what if refuse?" I ask. "then HYRDA win, and all the previous efforts will be for nothing" he sighs, dammit I'm now as they call it stuck between a rock and a hard place. "will the team know the truth?" I ask my voice barely audible, fury shakes his head "for this to work, it needs to be as real as possible that means telling no one at all". My eyes prick with tears "not even steve?" I ask hoping for the best, "not even him" he sighs. I sit down on one of the chairs and place my head in my hands unable to stop the tears that were now falling, just knowing how much pain I was about to cause. "fine I'll do it, but I will not be held responsible for steve's actions nor my own after this is all done" I state wiping the tears and leaving nicks office.

That was a few days ago, now here I was on a jet with Nat and clint getting ready for my solo mission they had no idea about. I was re-reading the mission briefing that had nothing to do with me over and over again bouncing my leg with anxiety "(Y/N) you okay? You seem a bit nervous?" nat ask sitting down beside me. I place the tablet I was reading down "yeah I'm fine, guess I'm just a bit more nervous than normal, don't really know why" I say smiling slightly, she pats me on the shoulder "well man up before you get yourself or other killed" she jokes. I laugh along slightly knowing that was exactly what was about to happen. "okay we will be over the boat in a couple of minutes" our pilot says, and the three of us get ourselves into the gear ready to jump.

This was it. here I was surrounded by the 'pirates' guns pointed at me as I edge slowly towards the edge of the boat, "(Y/N) stay there me and nat have visual on you, don't do anything stupid we will get you out okay?" I hear clint in my ear piece. I make eye contact with the 'pirate' right in front of me, I then feel the impact of every bullet aimed at my chest. None of them actually hurt me since I was wearing a bullet proof vest, but they did rupture the blood sack that gave the illusion I was bleeding out. I hear nat scream through the comm but before I can do anything I am kicked over the side of the boat, towards to ocean.

Steve's POV

I hear the quintet land outside and I immediately go out to greet (Y/N), it wasn't an overly hard mission but it still worried me when she went out without me to protect her. I jog towards the jet as its doors open, I see nat and clint walking out together Clint's arm wrapped around nat. when he sees me his face instantly turns to one of pure sadness, my heart rate increases as I still don't see (Y/N) leave the jet. "clint where is she?" I ask breathing in deeply. Nat instantly bursts into tears and hugs me confirming my worst fears "how?" Is all I can manage to say my own tears threatening the fall. "inside first, I only think I can say it once" clint says tears in his eyes. All of the other avengers gather in the communal area by the request of FRIDAY, I sat holding nat trying to contain my own tears as she wept into my shirt. "clint what's happened?" tony asks, he knows it must be serious due to the lack of a joke. "(Y/N)... she's gone..." he says staring at the floor "she got surrounded and before we could take them out they all shot her and kicked her into the sea, we tried to get her, save her but we were to slow so couldn't find..." clint has to stop due to the tears that were falling. Everyone is silent, wanda was now weeping into vision, thor and tony where wiping away the stray tears that threatened to fall while bruce just left. I glance over to buck and sam who were both looking over at me sympathetically, unable to take it I get up and leave the room heading to the shared bedroom that I used to share with (Y/N). Just before the elevator I feel a hand on my arm, glancing round I see bucky before he can even say anything I shrug off his hand and carry on walking.

2 weeks had passes since (Y/N) had died, I hadn't left the room. Unable to face the cruel world that took her from me, people tried to visit but I couldn't face them. Even if they did enter I turned away from them not wanting to hear anything. I was lying on my side of the bed looking over to her side, on her bedside table I could see one of the photos of us together. It was from when we all went to Disneyland, I was holding her hand both of us wearing matching micky mouse ear hats. More tears fall at the memory, I shut my eyes as the tears blur my vision. When I re-open them I see a figure standing in the door, I groan at the interruption and turn my back to the door. I feel the bed sink down by my feet "steve please talk to us, to me" bucky says, I glance up at his and shake my head "sorry buck I can't" I sigh. "Then let me keep you company" he says, I shake my head and walk to the bathroom "steve" I stop and glance over to my friend. This time I don't walk away, I turn to face him before letting all the tears I had been trying to stop fall. I try to cover my face with my hands but bucky pulls them away and me into a hug, "she's gone bucky she's gone" I cry into his shoulder. Bucky rubs my back gently muttering soothing words " I miss her" I cry, I feel bucky shudder slightly "me too, me too" he says through his own tears.

(Y/N)'s POV

I sat in a café that looked up at the tower, I was in disguise as I shouldn't be here but I needed to see my home. I finished up my drink taking one more look up at the tower before making my way away from the tower once more. I made my way over towards central park as it was always somewhere where I could calm myself down, sitting at one of the benches I overlook the park. While watching the world go by I watch as a redhead sits at the bench opposite my across the wide path, I watch as she rubs her forehead before sighing and looking straight up. When I see the face I shoot up and I begin to hastily walk out of the park, I don't get very far before I feel a hand grab my arm and pull me out of the sight of others. The person who grabs me slams my back into a tree and rips of the hat and wig I was wearing, "you bastard" nat mutters glaring at me. "I can explain" I sigh not wanting to meet her glare, "start talking now" she growls. I explain what happened and why and how fury made me do it, when I finish explaining she sighs and shakes her head at me turning away slightly. "nat please I'm sorry I never wanted to hurt you guys" I plead. she suddenly turns as if to strike me but hugs me tightly instead, "you ever do that again I will kill you," she cries "god steve is going to be so happy when he sees you!" she goes to pull me out of the hiding spot and towards the tower. "nat no, I can't go back yet, I haven't finished completely I have one more thing to do first" I say pulling her back, she looks at me confused "can I at least tell steve? He's be terrible the last couple of months". My heart breaks at these words, "how bad?" I ask, she shakes her head slightly "he wouldn't leave your room for the first month, he has now but he hasn't left the tower, he barely eats or sleeps" she sighs. "I'm sorry nat you can't, I need to, it will be soon though I promise. Look after him for me" I ask, she nods her head sadly she passes back my hat and wig before hugging me goodbye and leaving me.

Steve's POV

I sat slowly eating a piece of toast that nat made for me, she still is trying to get me to eat more but I lose my appetite completely. It's been 2 months, 1 week, 3 days, 13 hours since she didn't come back, I still expect her to appear out of the elevator but she never does. I push away the half eaten piece of toast and leave the kitchen to get dressed. Once I finish getting dressed I glance over at one of (Y/N)'s draws, not able to stop myself I take one of her tops and smell it. my eyes start to water at the familiar smell of her, I find her dad's handkerchief that he gave her when he passed. He was the only family she had left so it really hit her hard when he died, so much so that she carried this around constantly except while on missions. I bring it to my nose and smell it gently "mr rogers director fury has requested an emergency meeting in the communal area" Friday informs me. I sigh and hold the handkerchief close as I leave the room and make my way to the meeting.

I enter the room eyes fixed on the floor until I hear the voice I have been praying to hear "steve?" she says. My eyes shoot up and I see her, alive not dead. "(Y/N)?" I manage to say, she can only nod her head as the tears fall from her eyes. I rush over to her and hug her tightly as if to make sure she was real, "(Y/N) are you really here?" I mutter into her shoulder. "yes I am, stevie I'm so sorry for leaving you" she cries, holding me tight. Emotions get the better of me as over 2 months worth of sadness makes it way out, I crumble to my knees crying into her as I hold her. She stroke my head repeatedly "steve, I promise I wont ever leave you again" she cries, she drops down to her knees so she is eye level with me. She places her hands on my cheeks and rubs away the tears with her thumb, I place my hands on her cheeks and pull he into a kiss filled with tears of joy. "please don't ever leave me" I cry into the kiss, "I promise" she sighs.