Steve Rogers Imagines

The Not-Date

I was walking through the streets of new York by myself, I silently made my way through the crowds of new York. As busy as it was, I loved it because everyone was busy getting to where they needed to be not paying attention to who they were passing, even if it was an avenger. I had no plan as to where I was going I just wanted a walk, as I turned onto a much quieter street I realised that I was beginning to get hungry. I look around looking for somewhere to eat, I notice a hot dog vender but I decide against it grimacing at the memory of when the entire team got food poisoning from one of those hot dogs. I notice a sign for a café just up the street, deciding that it was good enough I made my way over to it. I stop short outside it though, I recognised it and remembered what had happened here. I bite my lip while I contemplate going in, I sigh to myself realising I couldn't not go somewhere because of something that happened there. If I did half of new York would be out of bounds. I make my way inside and into on the booths, I order my food and coffee and begin to eat in silence watching the world go by outside. "hey (Y/N) I didn't expect you to be here" Steve says grabbing my attention "oh hey Steve I didn't see you come in" I say smiling up at him, "mind if I join?" he asks, "yeah sure, the more the merrier" I smile. "can I get you anything?" a waitress says coming over to us "yeah just a black coffee please, (Y/N) do you want anything?" Steve asks, "no I'm good thanks" I smile, "just the coffee then please" Steve smiles to the waitress. "so how come you're out?" Steve asks turning his attention back to me, "just wanted a walk, what about you?" I ask taking a sip of my coffee "same as you, let me guess the tower got too chaotic and you wanted a break" Steve says. "yes exactly that, I think everyone deserves a break from the madness that is the team" I explain, "yeah sometimes I think we're the only two sane ones" Steve agrees laughing. We continue just talking for pretty much the rest of the afternoon, "um (Y/N), I'm kinda glad I ran into you" Steve says looking down at his now empty mug. "really? how come?" I ask, "well I was kinda hoping maybe we could do this sort of thing more often, maybe go out for a meal sometime" he asks nervously. I wasn't sure how to answer, I won't deny that I did have some feelings for Steve but I couldn't do it, "like a date?" I ask. he nods his head looking at me hopefully "Steve, I'm so sorry, don't get me wrong I would love to, it's just that I don't date" I explain, "it's okay, don't worry, so you don't date like at all?" he asks slightly confused. "well no, I do date just not at the moment and I can't date somebody I work so closely to" I explain, Steve nods his head in understanding "if you don't mind me asking, but why not" he asks. I glance over to the table that made me hesitant to enter the café in the first place "well that last time I got close to someone I worked with it ended so badly we couldn't look each other in the eye, and what made it worse was that we had to see each other almost every single day" I tell him looking back over at him "and I don't want to ruin our friendship, I'm sorry" I say apologising. "(Y/N) it's okay, I understand, but would it be okay if we came here again tomorrow for lunch as just friends" he suggests hopefully, I purse my lips unsure about it "I don't know Steve" I sigh, "it would be just like it is today, just two friends talking and having coffee" Steve says. "okay fine but just as friends" I agree.

It was the next day and I was meeting Steve here for lunch, "waiting on a date?" an old waitress asks, "no just a friend" I say wrapping my hands around my mug. Just then Steve walks in "sorry I'm late tony wouldn't stop talking to me" he says walking over, "honey I would grab him before anyone else does" the waitress whispers to me. I clear my throat before returning my attention to Steve "what was tony going on about?" I ask, "he wanted to try and add some weapons to my shield but I told him no" Steve explains. "fair enough, I would have just distracted him with his suits" I laugh, "I did that, took me a little while to think of it though" Steve laughs. As we ate we talked more finding things out more about each other, yeah me and Steve we friends but we didn't really know a lot about each other. At one point he caught me glancing over at the same table that I was looking at yesterday "you okay?" he asks grabbing my attention again "uh yeah sorry" I apologise looking back over at him. He nods his head "see this wasn't so bad, coffee as friends" Steve smiles, "yeah it was glad I agreed to it" I smile, "yeah its nice to get out of the tower too, maybe we should make this a regular thing" Steve suggests. "yeah that would be nice" I agree, I then catch the waitress I talked to earlier winking at me in approval. As the week went on we continued to come for lunch at the small café, we talked more and got closer as friends. "why do you keep on looking over there?" Steve asks when he once again catches me looking over at a table, "it's a long story" I sigh looking down at my drink, "I have the time" he says smiling reassuringly. "well before the avengers when I worked at shield I met this guy that also worked there, and the first impression I got off the guy was that he was a player and a typical guy" I explain "one day out of the blue I get a message from him, we begin talking and we got closer and closer until I agreed to go out on a date with him, he had proved me wrong because he was a really nice guy, we got closer and closer we agreed to keep our relationship a secret, what I didn't realise was that this didn't mean we were committed to each other, and one day I found out he had done practically the exact same thing with this other girl, I invited him to this café we sat right over there" I say pointing to the table "and we talked, he apologised admitted he was in the wrong and said he would cut it off with this other girl, but I couldn't trust him, he had broken my heart. So we carried on with our lives, not talking to each other not even being friends, I thought that would be easy but seeing him around every day killed me because despite everything I wasn't angry at him, yes I was disappointed in him but whenever I looked at him I just saw the person I fell in love with" I tell him. Steve reaches over to take my head "I'm so sorry if I had known I would never had asked" he apologises, "Steve its okay, I think the reason it had hurt so much was that I had been hurt before, this was the first time that someone that I liked, liked me back, because before I liked guys that never liked me, and the guys who liked me I didn't like back, he was the only one, well except from you" I admit looking over at him sadly. "we can't do this anymore" I sigh, "why not?" Steve asks, "because I thought if we just stayed friends I would stop the feelings I had for you but if anything they've grown" I explain. "I know I feel the same" he sighs, "and we can't be anything, because it would kill both of us, and I couldn't do that to you" I say removing my hands from his. "I'm going to go back to the tower, I guess I'll see you later" I say standing up, "yeah I'll see you later" he mutter sadly, I pause for a moment trying to figure out what to say but decide not to and make my way out.