Their Kind of Love | √

Chapter 31 √

[Yuan's]

"That - acting like you're jealous - acting like you care... Tigilan mo na, okay? You want me to stay away from you, right? Then lumayo ka rin sa 'kin. Hindi madali para sa 'kin 'to and I'm doing this for you. Pakitulungan naman ako. Act like you don't care. Act as if you're annoyed of me. Kaya mo naman 'di ba? Nagawa mo nga dati, eh." She said with a forced smile. I can almost taste the pain in her voice.

She looked at me directly, letting me see how much pain she's feeling right now. And her sad eyes makes my heart break. Seeing her like this is a nightmare to me.

Inalis niya ang pagkakahawak ko sa kanya. I want to hold her tightly right now. I want to hug her so bad and never let her go. But that would just add pain to her, right? No matter how much I wanted to be greedy right now... I just can't.

I watched her as she turned her back on me and slowly walked away.

What am I doing?

What if while I'm focusing on protecting her, it's already too late?

What if she doesn't love me anymore?

Kaya ko ba 'yon?

And that thought terrified me.

Even though it hurts to be away from her, I'm always comforted by the thought of her love for me. I have so much faith on her feelings for me. But seeing her right now, looking tired of loving me... Nakaramdam ako ng takot.

In times na nakakausap ko siya, I want to tell her what I really feel.

I want to tell her to stay by my side.

I want to tell her how much I wanted to hug her.

I want to tell her that I always think of her.

I want to tell her that I'm just doing this to protect her.

I want to tell her how sorry I am for the pain she's feeling - for the tears she had shed because of me.

I want to tell her how much it kills me knowing that I'm hurting her.

I want to tell her to not give up on me.

I want to tell her to keep on loving me.

I want to tell her how much I missed her.

I want to tell her how much I love her.

I'm sorry, baby. But I can't stop myself from being greedy.

[Kisses']

I tried my best para makapaglakad ng maayos. Napalunok ako habang napahawak sa bandang dibdib ko.

Bakit kailangang maging ganito kasakit? Akala ko okay na ako. Akala ko namanhid na ako. Pero bakit nasasaktan na naman ko ng sobra?

Gusto kong pilitin siyang sabihin sa 'kin kung ano ang problema.

Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na gumawa siya ng paraan para sa aming dalawa.