Their Kind of Love | √

Chapter 44 √

I sighed for the nth time. I couldn't concentrate sa binabasa ko dahil sa kakaisip kay Yuan.

I glanced at my phone again ngunit wala pa ring mensahe o tawag mula sa kanya. I tried calling him since last night pero naka-off yata ang phone niya.

Maybe he was really upset with what happened. I feel so guilty about it. Dapat sinabi ko muna sa kanya ang rason ko kahapon. Dapat kinausap ko muna siya. Baka he felt rejected with what I did yesterday.

Napadukdok ako sa lamesa dahil sa frustration na nararamdaman ko.

I like you, Kisses. Not just as my best friend but more than that.

Halos masabunutan ko ang sarili ko nang maalala ang sinabi ni Marcus kahapon.

He called for me because he said he wants to tell me something but he received a call saying his mother got into an accident kaya kami nag-panic and rushed to the hospital.

Good thing hindi naman malala ang nangyari kay Tita. But then, when I thought everything's okay na, here's Marcus confessing his feelings for me.

What is he even thinking? I don't even know what to think at that time. So what I did was leave him while calling Yuan on the phone.

But he did not answer. And it was my fault.

"Kisses?"

Napalingon ako sa kakapasok lang sa office. Puno ng pagtataka ang tingin sakin ni Ali.

"Hi, Ali." Matamlay kong bati.

"Okay ka lang?"

Hindi ako sumagot. Nagkibit-balikat lang ako.

Hinila niya ang isang upuan palapit sa 'kin at saka umupo doon. "You look like you're gonna be crazy any time soon. Care to tell me what happened? I'm all ears."

Muli akong napabuntong-hininga at nangalumbaba. "The thing is..." And I started telling her what happened.

"I know there's no label between you and Yuan, but is there any moment na hindi ka niya in-assure that he's all yours and you're the one for him?" Seryosong tanong ni Ali.

Saglit akong natahimik. May mga pagkakataon nga bang nangyari 'yun?

"Well, he always told me that he loves me. Sa mga pagkakataong akala ko ay iniwan niya na ako, nandyan lang pala siya, nananatili sa tabi ko... Before I could even doubt of his feelings for me, nandyan siya kaagad para i-secure ako. Siguraduhin na ako lang talaga... He's very open about his feelings for me." I remembered everything he's done for me. "I kept on pushing him away but he kept on holding my hand..."

Maybe that's the reason why I didn't even bother explaining to him first the reason why I need to go with Marcus is because I am confident that he will understand. He always understands. And I am taking it for granted. Am I really worthy of him? Is there anything I've done for him ever since?

"And what about you?" Ali suddenly asked.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. "Huh?"

"Have you ever assured him of your feelings for him?"

Natigilan ako ng ilang sandali. "I'm sure he knows..."

Did I ever assure him that he's the only one for me? How can he be assured of my feelings if I always took back everything I said about it?

"I know action speaks louder than words but don't you think it'll still be different for him, hearing that you love him, too?"

Hindi ako nakasagot sa sinabi niya. I never really did anything for Yuan. It's always him na gumagawa ng paraan para maging posible kaming dalawa. Kaya anong karapatan ko para sabihin na mahal ko siya?