What you know (Hamilton cast)

Thirt-three

A/N- yeah im like never gonna be able to dance. Even with like 15 hours a week of classes
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"You just found out?" He asks. He deserves to know about my boyfriend.

"Yeah. I left the theater right after. That was an hour ago."

"That's why you're so cold." He says as we step up in line. "Are you doing okay?" I nod.

"I don't like him. He just doesn't take no for an answer."

"Well, until he does. Because he will, can we be friends." Why just until then? Oh. Does he want to be more?

"Sure thing." We step up to the counter. 

"Two medium hot chocolates, please." He says.

"Coming up." I reach into my pocket. "You better not try to pay." I pull out a few dollars. He hands the cashier his card and makes me put my money back.

"Thanks. But friends, remember."

"Friends can pay for friends." Something tells me that Friends will be a label on something that feels much more than that.

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"What the hell, Kelsey." Pippa pulls me up and forcefully guides me to the door.

"Dude!" I say once I'm in the light.

"Guess who's in there." She says to Carleigh and Lin.

"Why did you come here at six in the morning and force me out of bed?"

"Nick!" Pippa yells.

"I have neighbors." I say.

"Why?" Asks Lin, looking confused/concerned. "Why are you still with him?" His eyes drift my wrist and thighs. I have on a shirt that is falling off my shoulder, and underwear. Then a bra and my strap is loosened and showing. I adjust my shirt, uncomfortable, but it still falls off a shoulder. My scars and bruises are visible since I haven't covered them. Luckily, it is only the really old scars, a bruise around my wrist, and one around my upper arm that can be seen. People look at my wrist and thighs every chance they get when their not covered because of the scars. Most are very thin and white and some, like my wrist, only visible in some light because they're five years old and I didn't cut so deep. I keep my hand blocking part of my thigh, extreamly uncomfortable in so little clothes, also partially revealing that I'd had sex the night before.

"Break up with him." Pippa says. "You deserve more." I stare at the ground for a second.

"I'm going for a walk." I step back inside, put one some jeans, a hoodie, and shoes. It takes me less then a minute. I don't care to do anything else right now. I feel asleep with foundation so I'm good.

They follow about ten feet behind me. It's kind of creepy but I don't care. Let them do what they want as long as they leave me be for a while. They talk but not very loudly so It's okay. I let my feet lead me. I don't care where I'm going. Besides, I always end up in the same places.

I guess they came this morning because I didn't answer anyone last night. I told Nick what I knew and I'm really sore now.

I arrive on the Brooklyn bridge. I stop and lean my arms on the wall, looking at the city as they join me on each side.

"What are you thinking about?" Lin asks. I shrug.

"What about you?"

"How I should come here more often. How pretty the city is. Do you come here a lot?" I nod. "It's a really long walk. Maybe take the subway." He says, laughing.

"Sorry. I get lost in thought when I walk. You didn't have to follow me."

"Yeah, we did." Pippa says. I look on the other side of me at her. "We're your friends. We're going to make sure that you're okay and that you dump the bastard instead of having sex with him.

"I didn't have sex with him." I defend myself though it's a lie.

"Then why was he sleeping there?"

"Because he was too lazy to go home aft-"

"After? After what?"

"After visiting me." That was a lame lie. I start to push the conversation away from me again and Lin actually gets a little angry.

"Why can't you let anyone even finish a thought about what comes out of your mouth? You just want them to forget that you spoke. Do you want to be forgotten?" I stare at him a moment. I do. I really do. I'm gonna die and I'm not going to leave a mark. Who would remember me? I start walking away from the bridge, asking them not to follow.
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