A Criminal Minds x Reader (EDITING-IN-PROCESS)

Chapter Fifty Seven

"I-" you were trying to ask what was the plan here, but Hotch shh'd you before you couldn't even talk. The alarms were silent, but the emergency lights were on. Just then, there was a shot heard inside the building. You watched as everyone tensed up , ready to aim. Garcia huddled closer to you, you could hear her rapid breathing. Moments of silence continued after that first shot you heard, but then the emergency lights shut off.
"I think someone's suppose to check after the lights-"
"Shh, Reid, it could be a trap," Morgan hushed back.
You were getting anxious. You and the team had no outside contact with the other agents.
"I'll go. I'll go and check," You whispered loud enough.
"Are you insane, YN?" Rossi commented back.
"Look, we don't know what's going on. There's probably a chance that the shooter is targeting me," You say back.
"Take my gun," Hotch handed you his second gun that was around his ankle.
"You're seriously going out there?" Reid pulled back your arm as you grabbed the gun.
"Somebody's got to. It's protocol," You tell him.
"You're breaking protocols just by carrying a gun. You're on suspension," Reid reminded you.
"Screw suspension!" Your voice was in a very loud whisper.
With that, you opened the door and left the team behind you.
The Beureau was too still for your liking. There was no sound of movement.  The gun shot sounded like it came from the bathroom portion of the Beureau.
Gun pointed out in front of you, you slowly walked over towards the bathrooms cautiously looking over your shoulder every so often. You were getting goosebumps and you could feel your hair on the back of your neck stood up.
You haven't heard anything which felt weird to you but you decided to keep investigating. Opening the door to the head of the Beureau's office, you were taken by surprised when you found yourself landing hard onto your stomach. The gun flew a couple of inches ahead of you.
You attempted to turn and face who attacked you, but you already knew who it was. Grabbing the a medal rod that was by the door, you gave a good hit to Nazar.
"Try again, sweets," He breathed heavily as he sat on top of you. You shrieked as he held the medal rod against your neck.
"Do you know what I've gone through since your little boyfriend arrested me a couple of days ago? Evaluations, drugs that were to help me. Do you know what that does to a person? I loved you, YN, I loved you," Nazar said through gritted teeth.
Using all of your might, you were able to get the medal rod out of Nazar's reach.
"Then why did you kill Grayson!" You gave a loud grunt as you punched him across the face, allowing you to escape.
"I- I- I wanted a reason for you to stay. That's why-" Nazar stopped at a distance while you held your gun at him.
"There was no reason to torture Michael, there was no reason to kidnap me and absolutely no reason in hell to torment my team!" You shout angrily, all of your emotions were escaping your body. Could you really end all of your past right now? Could it really be that simple? A bullet that could start a new beginning.
"Don't shoot, YN. You don't want to," Spencer came out, gun in his hand.
"Give me one good reason, Spence. Give me one good reason why I shouldn't end this bastard's life right now," That statement earned a little snicker from Nazar.
"Julia," Spencer calmly said as you still had your gun pointed at Nazar.
He was right. If you were to shoot Nazar right now, you would be locked up in federal prison.
"But, but he ruined me," You said through tears. You crumble to the floor, you couldn't deal with all the emotions.
"You might want to give me that gun," Hotch came up behind you as he took the gun carefully from your hands. He sat there, cradling you on the floor, while you sobbed like a baby.
You tuned out everything else, including Spencer arresting Nazar yet again, and even JJ offering you a tissue box.
All you wanted was to be protected from Nazar and every other monster in the world.