poppin' pills

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so ever since this spring shit has started up I've been getting allergies. But idk if its just a cold either...and since I can't tell the difference It makes me take like three pills every day (two for the cold and one for the allergy) 

and the thing is that these pills make me really drowsy and moody (like I'm om my period even tho I'm not) and to top it all off I already don't get that much sleep which makes coffee a must in this world. 

anyways I'm just saying that I'm just not as motivated for shit like schoolwork and its making me really apathetic. 

I dunno I got like 4 hours of sleep last night.

Mentally I'm awake but physically I'm dying 

yea that's how to explain it, as of now my body is screeching for its second cup of coffee and an aspirin. 

Maybe sleep, that too.  

(﹡ꑓ ︿ ꑓ'﹡)

whenever someone comes up to me its like a mental game of jeapordy or some shit 

are they 

a) here to give you shit and complain about how much of a failure you are

b) here because they want something from you (again)

c) here because they want to engage in the painful art of socializing 

d) just trying to be nice but I don't see it since I'm grumpy all the fucking time 

^^^^ I suggest you play this while you're reading what's above

actually most of my life is a game show tbh

mentally I'll analyze any situation like this:

I'm tired, should I 

a) 'one more' cup of coffee 

b) actually try to get some fucking sleep

c) procrastinate because you're mentally exhausted but the only thing keeping you up is raw coffee and the will to live fading from your existence

d) idk fucking kill myself

*cue jeapoardy music* 

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