Faith

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Jayda

“Why you being so nice to me?” He slurred.

“What?”

“I basically fucked up your life and here you are being nice to me. You tryna fuck with my head now?”

“LJ, you're drunk, you need to sleep.” I sighed.

I was about to walk off when he pulled me back.

“Nah, I need you.” He held my waist as he sat there.

Looking up at me with these sad eyes, he continued.

“I need you to forgive me JuJu. I fucked up and I love you but I know you're not gonna take me back so I need you to forgive so I can let you go.”

I didn't respond because I was shocked. I knew he was drunk but at the same time, I knew he was telling the truth.

My mother always use to tell me that a Drunk man’s words were a sober man’s thoughts.

“LJ I need to pick up your clothes of the floor.” I tried to move.

“At least stay with me please.”

“I don't know about that LJ.”

“Please Jay, that’s all I'm.”

“LJ!” I groaned.

Before he could even get the last of his words out, he threw up all over me.

“I'm sorry.” He spoke slumped over.

Sighing, I took some breaths and calmed down. Helping him up, we walked over to the bathroom. Turning the shower own, I watched as he sat on the toilet seat, just out of it. Once the water was decent, I helped him.

“Come on LJ.”

Helping him up, I lead him into the shower. Once he was in, I took the used towels that was in there and wiped up his vomit.

Looking at my dress in the mirror, I felt hurt about it being messed up. Shaken out of my thoughts,I heard him speak.

“You can change into these.” He handed me one of his tees.

“Thanks.”

Walking into the bathroom, I dropped the towels on one side of the shower and then changed and got in myself.

All while showering, my mind raced. I didn't know if this was God testing me to see if I had truly forgiven him or what.

Finishing in the shower, I stood by the sink trying to wash my dress. Once I was finished, I hung it on the towel rack and walked back into the bedroom to LJ fast asleep.

“God I hope I don't regret this.” I spoke before climbing into bed.

Making myself comfortable, I exhaled and relaxed. As I was about to close my eyes, I felt his arms around me.

“LJ?” I sighed and turned to him.

Even though it was dark, some light shone into the room. Staring into his eyes, he gently caressed my cheek.

“You're forever beautiful, you know that?” He whispered.

Closing my eyes at his soft touch, I took a deep breath and exhaled.

“What do you want from me LJ?”

“I want you to forgive me.”

“But I have. You need to forgive yourself now.”