In Love With The Enemy

Chapter 35: Best Friend Advices

"Lianna!" Raine said when she saw me crying by the door. She kneeled in front of me and hugged me. She was combing my hair and telling me that it'll be alright. I looked behind her and I saw Christian looking at us with a worried face. "Christian, is it alright if you leave us for a while?" Raine asked him while she's helping me sit on the couch and he nodded before walking to the door. "What happened?"

"I-i broke u-up with Gabriel, " I said, trying to stop more tears that are going to fall from my eyes but I failed. Tears just overflowed from my eyes and I can't do anything to stop them.

"Oh my gosh!"

"Did I make a wrong decision? Should I chase him and tell him that I regret everything?" I asked her and she didn't answer. She just stared off into space. "Please tell me, Raine. Am I stupid to let him go? I love him so much and I don't know what has gotten into me. He did control me and his jealousy was unbearable but I love him and I don't want to lose him."

"You aren't stupid, Lianna. You are facing a toxic kind of relationship now. You do love him, I know but you felt like he has placed a leash around your neck and you can't breathe, right?" She asked and I nodded. "Then you did it because you wanna feel free. It's hard to let him go, I know but the both of you need this. You need this to grow and explore more things around you without worrying about anyone's opinion and he needed this to reflect on what he has done. By the time both of you have done that alone, you can conquer anything together.

"Also, letting him go doesn't mean you love him less. Just like what Skye Miller has said in the second season of 13 reasons why, you could let go of a person and still love them, " She said and I just hugged her. No words were said while we were hugging each other. I just felt safe in her arms. Minutes passed and I slowly felt myself starting to doze off.

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"Anna, I know you're sad but please attend your classes. You didn't attend your classes yesterday and tomorrow you and Christian will have to present your report again, right?" She sat at the edge of my bed. "Get up please, roomie. Christian told me how important your studies are to you. Surely, you wouldn't let this breakup ruin you."

"I'll go to my classes tomorrow, Raine. Just tell Christian to meet me here for our report. I just can't attend my classes now."

"Why?"

"Because instead of focusing, my mind will wander. I don't like to think about Gabriel. My conscience will just tell me to get back with him because my reason for breaking up with him is too shallow."

"Lianna, the reason you broke up with him is very sensible. We all need our freedom," she sighed. "But you're all alone here. Doesn't the loneliness make you think of him even more?"

"Surprisingly, no. I may be alone and it may be quiet as hell but here, I could sleep. I slept all day yesterday. I just woke up to eat and then I slept again. When I'm asleep, my brain is not functioning which is very helpful."

"You can't sleep it all off, Lianna. You still have to face them."

"I know that, but right now, I need to rest, " I said before closing my eyes. I heard her sigh and a few seconds later, I heard the door close. Not long after, my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and it flashed Bianca's name. "Hey."

"Lia? Hi, how are you?" She asked.

"I can't lie to you so I'm gonna tell you the truth. I am not fine, Bianca. Thanks for asking."