Walls

Chapter 12 part2

Tears kept rolling down my face.

I cannot stop them.

Its as if they have mind on their own and kept flowing nonstop.

And even if I could, I wouldn't.

Tears seems to be my only companion right now,

I wouldn't want to be totally alone.

It has already been hours since this silence began.

I have always been comfortable with silence but now, this is different.

It is painfully silent.

Nothing, even my cries, can be heard.

Jace left a few hours ago after I refused to go with him.

I cannot go.

And its not because of what he thinks.

I did not chose Louis.

I would love to go with Jace

He is my happiness.

But how about my family?

If I go how can I give them the future I want them to have?

How about my work?

I love my work.

I am lucky to be part of a team, a hospital that encourages me and does not judge me.

I am lucky that my workmates are nice.

And how about my dreams?

I have always wanted and dreamt of being this independent.

I have always dreamt and planned my stay here.

Can I just leave everything behind just because Jace figured it wrong?

I felt pain, worsen deep inside me.

Jace broke up with me before he left.

Why did he left me?

After everything, is this the way how it should end?

Just because he cannot understand me?

Just because he has assumed everything?

I shook my head.

Another clichè,

Assuming...

It has always hurt me.

It never failed.

Because of assuming everything, Jace has even left without hearing my side.

I looked at Jace's shirt in my hand.

The shirt I was about to lend to Louis when Jace came.

I put it near my face.

I can still smell Jace through this shirt.

He has always would spray scent on his clothes.

It has been one of his habits.

I smiled in the memory when he insisted of spraying his cologne on my clothes.

I would always complain but secretly I love it.

I have always loved male scents and colognes. They were always more attractive for me.

And Jace's scent was my favorite.

Not because of what brand he was using,

but because He was the one using it.

His scent has always given me the feeling of security, of love..