Walls

Chapter 16 part1

"Good day our dear passengers, this is your pilot speaking. We are now about to reach London Airport Terminal. We hope you had a comfortable flight with us. Enjoy your stay and again, have a great day."

I took a deep breath as I close my eyes.

I kept hearing the pilot's voice over and over in my head for most random times for a month now since I got here. It was like a reminder to tell me that I'm already here in London.

I am glad and thankful to those people that helped me fix everything so that I can reach here. Not that there are a lot, there were only Ms. Trance and Mrs. Styles. I owe those ladies big time.

Other than that, I know God destined me to be here so no one could really hinder. He was the one who let all of those painful things to happen to me so that I can be stronger. He was the one who was behind those who helped me with my papers so I could be here. He was the one who let me meet Krissy at the airport.

God really moved in so many wonderful ways. Just sometimes, we cannot see and understand why and how but soon, His plans shall unfold.

Well for one of the "why" is when He let me meet Krissy. I was annoyed by her talkativeness at first but now I understand, she was meant to help me have a start here. She helped have a place to stay here in London.

"Yeli? You there?" I heard someone call from the door.

I can't help but to shook my head.

"Speaking of.."

Krissy is a half Australian and half Filipino that I've met at the airport. She is really pretty and looked like a Barbie doll but she has green eyes and fair skin plus the red hair that she insisted were natural. No wonder she got accepted as a flight attendant in London, she is quite a gem. Just a bit too talkative, I think.

"Helloooo? Yeliiiiiii?? I know you're there love! Come on! Open the door love! I've got you some stuffs!" I swear the author isn't exaggerating with the punctuations. I change my mind, she is really talkative and LOUD.

Krissy kept on giving me tokens from her travels. I kept telling her that there's no need but she insisted. She said I was the sister she was asking God. And honestly, I'm not really sure how I feel about that.

I get up and opened the door and in an instant Krissy went in straight to my bed with a big paper bag in hand.

"What took you so long to open up the door?" She asked as she entered.

I was about to tell her I'm sorry but she cut me off.

"No need." Referring to my answer.

She pull out the random things she bought from the bag. Or more like, she dumped those in my bed.

"Look! I bought few stuffs for you! OMG. You'll love these!" She said instantly forgetting she was mad or so I thought she was supposed to be.

I shook my head and closed the door behind me.

"Look at this! I got this from Thailand and the moment I saw this I knew it would be for you! This dress suits you! It complements your skin color and highlights your curves! Gosh darling! You'll be such a bomb with this!" She said in such a high tone while shoving me the dress.

"Come on! Try it! Go!" She said as she pushed me towards the bathroom.

I hesitated but I knew better. Krissy would not stop, literally, until she gets what she wants. Quite annoying but I sometimes look up on her determination. She know what she wants and she does everything to get it.

I tried the dress and Krissy made me tried a few more. I must admit, the dresses are fine. I would probably buy those myself.

"If you were what and who you used to be." my mind added.

"Shut up." I argued.

"As if you'll win against me." She insisted. I swear, I'll get crazy if I continue this conversation with myself.

Krissy gave me random things, from dresses to necklaces, from keychains to lipsticks. I swear there are wide variety of randomness.

Krissy has been really kind and generous. Not to mention, really patient about me. I never told her anything about me other than my name, age, where I was from, and that I worked in New York before I got here. She bugged me thousands if not millions of questions for a week but eventually she gave up. I told her I'm not yet ready to tell anyone about it. She just made sure I wasn't part of a syndicate and left me at peace. I was surprised because she usually don't take a no for an answer but I think she somehow understood.

I still cannot consider Krissy as my friend but I've got nothing besides her here. I still felt guarded whenever she tries to get more from me from time to time. Although I felt like I needed someone to talk to sometimes, just to lighten up the build up in my chest, whenever I would try to open my mouth to talk no words nor sounds seemed to escape from my lips. Its as if my body has a mind on its own and refused to reveal my past.

I even tried to cry, in desperation but no tears ever show. I don't know, I regret the wish I made before. I wished that my body would stop feeling the pain. That it would stop missing his touch. That it would stop hearing his voice even if he's not here. That it would refuse any form of reminiscing. I thought of that when I grew tired of crying one day, but my tears were nonstop then. And now, even though I try, nothing happens. So the build up in my chest grew heavier and heavier each day. I felt like suffocating sometimes but I feel helpless. Krissy was the only one who somehow pulls me from the slow sand I was in. She was a spark from a pitch dark world of mine. No matter how annoyed I am with her most of the time, I know, she is my only source of heat from the coldness in my heart. Not enough, I'm still doubtful but I know... soon, I'll be back.

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