Walls

Chapter 24 part3

The violinist together with the singer guy and waiter has been long gone but Jace and I were still swaying inside our empty suite. We were dancing with our heartbeats while we look directly at each other's eyes. I tried to look away but his hazel eyes, those hazel eyes were pulling me. They were pleading me not to look away. They were telling stories I am trying to figure out.

I was deep into Jace's eyes when I heard his phone rang. That snapped me to reality, I quickly removed my hands around his neck who were previously playing with his hair.

"Babe, easy. It's only an alarm. Time to go to the balcony. Let's go. Hurry!" He cupped my cheeks and pulled my hand as we walked fast towards the balcony.

I looked at him puzzled as I try to figure what is in the balcony.

Seconds later, Jace hugged me from behind as he whispered a countdown to my ears.

"Look at the sky." He said as he reached one.

I looked up and in an instant, the quiet night was filled with the sounds of fireworks. Fireworks lit up the sky in different colors, popping and bursting in the sky, as if they were playing there. Some formed star shapes while most where heart shapes. Seconds later, the fireworks ceased. I tried to look at Jace to say thank you but he whispered, "There's one more babe."

I waited and after a few seconds, another shorter series of fireworks lit up the sky, but this time it wasn't just formed as shapes.

The last blue fireworks formed a sentence with 3 words.

"I love you." Jace read the formed sentence as he turned me to face him.

"I love you, babe. I have always loved you and will always love you. Remember that." He said sincerely.

I, on the other hand, was filled with joy. I never felt this special. I just stare at Jace's eyes, with an awe expression, still wordless. I know he could tell just by looking in my eyes that I am happy. I feel really happy. I kept on opening my mouth trying to find my voice to tell him how I felt about this but I just can't. I cannot find the right and perfect words to describe everything.

Jace's eyes on the other hand slowly became a stirring darker shade. He pulled me closer and closer, I knew then he was fighting off something inside. I wanted to help him and fight it off too for him but I, myself were fighting off my own version of it.

"Sorry babe, I cannot.." He said as he closed the distance between our faces. He pressed his lips against mine. I was surprised but my rational mind seemed to be not working for I found myself opening my mouth giving him entrance. The mere sensation of his lips against mine were enough to finally let my body have what it wanted. Jace took this opportunity to slid in his tongue and at that very moment, I was not thinking anymore. I hanged my arms around his neck pulling him closer. Jace's hands were against my back, hugging me. We were kissing passionately, just like how we used to kiss or even hotter. We touch each other like there wasn't a painful past behind us, as if we were the same couple as before.

I felt Jace lifted me. I automatically hooked my legs around him for support. Without breaking our kiss, we managed to lie off to bed.

His hands were firm against my body. I felt him touch ever inch of my skin and in ever stroke I felt myself burn. Jace broke the kiss and trailed deep kisses on my neck. I miss this sensation. This  overwhelming sensation that makes me forget reality. I gasped as Jace nibbled on my earlobes, he still knew how much I liked it. He still knew how hot it makes me feel. He still knew how to control my body. He still knew how to make me loose control. He still knew me.

I collected a fistful of his hair, tugging it gently as I moan for his name.

"Damn babe, I missed doing this to you." He huskily whispered in my ears.

He lifted his hand from my back and trailed it on my shoulder then slowly went on my breast and gently squeezing it.

"Oh Jace.." I said as I gasped.

Jace slowly trailed kisses downward towards my collarbone as his both hands started appreciating my both breasts.

I kept on calling his name, unable to coherently say anything else.

Later, I found his hands caressing my thighs.

I snapped my eyes open.

"Oh no. What am I doing?"

"J-Jace." I called him gently pushing him.

Jace pushed up and looked at me puzzled.

"I'm sorry, I can't.." I told him unable to look at him directly for I knew he could see the other way around in my eyes.

I grabbed a pillow and hugged it as I tried to fix myself.

I felt Jace got out of the bed as he let out a sigh.

"I understand. I'm sorry. Don't worry, I will not push you. I'll give you time." I looked up at him and found him sincerely smiling at me.

"I love you, remember that, okay?"

I nodded then he left.

I so wanted to stab myself, to hit myself. I want him. I missed him. I miss his touch. I miss his kisses, his whispers. All of the things he does, I miss him.

"But how about Jayson?" My stupid subconscious butt in.

I love Jayson too.

I am also happy when I am with him.

He also makes me laugh.

But..

not as much as Jace does.

I knew it even from the start.

It has always been Jace.

I was just in denial.

I was just holding it back.

I was fighting off this feeling but I knew I still love Jace.

I took a deep breath as I got off the bed and walked towards the bathroom.

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Jace's POV

I left her room after after I saw her nod.

I cannot stay with her in a single room anymore.

The moment I started to feel her skin again against me, I knew I'll be in a deep mess.

From a single holding hands, I promised myself not to go further but the longer I feel her skin, the more I crave in. Soon, I found myself embracing her. It encourages me more when she didn't protested. I knew she liked it too. I knew she misses it too as much as I do.

I tried to contain myself but the moment she looked at me, with those bright happy eyes, I lost it. I went back to the feeling that nothing changed. Back to the moment when we could touch each other as much as we wanted. We could kiss each other anytime. And before I lost it, I apologized to her then gave in to what my heart and body desired.

I pressed my lips against her. It made me feel ten thousand feelings all together. Her lips were still the sweetest thing ever. Still the tastiest lips ever.

I brushed my hair using my hands and walked towards my room.

Damn, this gotta be a long night.

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