Walls

Chapter 28 part3

Jason's POV

I still feel terribly guilty with what I have been acting for the last weeks. I bet my nurses were able to sense it for when I requested to go out of my room to get fresh air they allowed me though I insisted to be alone.

I rode an electric wheelchair and roamed around the hospital. I wanted to visit Jace but the nurses did not permitted me to get inside although they allowed me to take a glimpse of him. I was in the garden reflecting everything that happened when I decided to pass by the hospital chapel. I heard a familiar sobbing inside, I turned and saw a female figure kneeled on the dark side of the chapel. I motioned the wheelchair to go towards the girl then there I figured it was Dani.

Cliche others may say, but here we are  Dani and I, with the same scenario a few months back. In the house of the Lord, her crying, and I am about to comfort her. Its unbelievable to realize in just a matter of months, no matter how many trials we three may have experienced, we still get to return to this. That no matter how many rise and fall we all went through, here she is, still crying, still afraid to lose him. Here I am, still inlove with her, yet ready to be her shoulder to cry on.

"Dani.." I called on her.

She stopped crying as she froze. Possibly processing if it was really my voice who called her. She slowly turned her head.

Damn. Her eyes were swelling from crying. I can feel the heaviness in her stare. I can feel how tired she is. I can feel how much she wanted to give up and yet, after a moment of shock, here she is, smiling. Trying but failing to mask her feelings.

"J-Jason, what are you doing here?" She asked as she wiped her tears.

I motioned her to come near me in which she obliges. As soon she was near me, I pulled her to seat to the chair beside my wheelchair.

I touched her face as I wiped some of her tears.

"You're still silly." I remarked.

She was obviously surprised.

"Still hiding your emotions when it is already overflowing."

She tried to look away but I held her.

"You know, I am supposed to be mad at you for numerous reasons. One of which was hiding from me."

"You hid to me what really happened to Jace. I didn't knew so I was stubborn. I was blinded by my ignorance. I was jealous too."

She seemed surprise to know I already know but she still remained quiet.

"Then you're trying to hide your real feelings when I can already see it. I think you failed to remember I am still your best friend. I know you Dani. I may love you more than necessary but I am still here for you. I will always be your shoulder to cry on. Even though the reason of those tears may hurt me, I'll be more than glad to take a fraction of your pain."

With this she cried.

"I'm so sorry Jason." She cried.

I just held on to her as she cry on my shoulder.

How can I resist this girl?

I genuinely love her.

I genuinely care for her.

I genuinely wanted to express it to her, to show to her how much I feel for her.

But, I am still her best friend.

I am still supposed to be her shoulder to cry on.

I am still supposed to support her, help her and be here for her.

No matter how my heart is dreading to make her mine,

I needed to forget myself.

I needed to put her above me.

I needed to protect her.

I'll be selfless again, just for her.

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