Walls

Chapter 29 part2

I was practically running when I felt my phone vibrated. I didn't bother to stop as I reached my phone to read the message.

"We just left."

I typed in a quick, "I'm almost there.", as I get inside the elevator.

Jace's parents and I take turns in taking care for Jace. We usually stay in a designated room for the patients' family that is connected to the ICU. However, Jace's parents usually stayed throughout daytime, which allowed them to have a few hours to stay beside Jace during visiting hours. Jace's mother is still cold towards me, in which I am learning to cope up with, considering she used to be really sweet to me when I first met her.

I walked out of the elevator and walked towards the ICU. I walked in inside and smiled at the few familiar faces inside the relative's room. I glanced at the door connecting to the patient's room. I peeked inside hoping it was my friend nurse who is in charge tonight. Just in time, the nurse passed by to ask something from the other patient's relative.

"Hey Hilda." I greeted.

"Danielle, good thing you're here. I need to tell you something. Come inside." She said as she lead me.

I wasn't surprised because it's a secret understanding between us. She will call me inside so that the other relatives wouldn't hear and suspect that she was allowing me to have at least a glimpse of Jace outside visiting hours.

"How was he?" I asked, never leaving my gaze on Jace.

"Still the same. Dr. Simon had a special case in the operating room right now. He said he'll drop by to check Jace. You can ask him for more information. I think you can also come inside again as soon as he arrives."

I nodded and thanked Hilda. I went back to the relatives' room and walked towards my usual spot. I pulled my comforter and made myself comfortable. Few hours passed, I heard Hilda informing me that Dr. Simon has arrived. I went inside and wore the gown and walked towards Jace's physician near the nurse station.

"Danielle, how are you?" Dr. Simon, one of my dearest specialist and one of the physicians in charge of Jace, greeted me.

I tried to smile.

"Very well, how can I say this?" He said thinking out loud. "Well, Danielle, as a nurse you knew very well how critical this type of case is. I already talked with Dr. Guevarra and we both agree that during the whole 1month after his accident, Jace hasn't shown any improvement."

I blindly nodded and turned to look at Jace.

I know.

I knew it very well. I have handled a handful of patients with the same case and most of them has not been a happy ending.

"We will talk about this tomorrow with his parents. I told you because I know you and I feel for you. We are really doing our best. Our initial fear of memory loss has worsen."

My vision started to blur.

No please.

"He may or may not wake up but as time passes by, without any improvement or response from him, chances increases that he might not be able to wake up anymore."

I cried.

"I'm sorry Danielle. But rest assured, we are still doing our best efforts for him. We just wanted to be open about it to you and to his family."

I nodded. Or more like blindly nodded. I knew this is possible. I knew it might come to this. I knew it all along that this might happen. That this might be a possibility. But I just wouldn't listen to my rational self. I just cannot take it that way. Of course I would deny that this is possible. I would deny that this will happen. I would but sadly I couldn't. Clearly, I couldn't.

I walked towards Jace.

"Hi babe." I greeted him.

"Please open your eyes and tell me that you're going to be fine." I took his hand and kissed it.

"Please? Please tell me that you are fighting and that I shouldn't give up. Tell me that you are doing your best and that you still wanted to be with me. Please Jace? Open your eyes. Tell me you are going to be fine. That I shouldn't lose hope. That I should continue fighting. That I should hold on."

"Babe.. I'm already tired. I feel weak. I need you please. Please. Just show me that you are fighting this with me. Assure me please. Jace?" I said crying.

"I love you. You know I love you. I have never unloved you. I always and had always been inlove with you. Jace.. Just wake up please. I promise we will fight together. I promise I will never leave you. I love you."

"Please do not let go."

With that, I hugged him. I couldn't let him go. I am weak. I am wounded but I will never let go. I love Jace too much to let him go. I would fight even at this state, I would. As long as he will be beside me fighting. As long as he is on my side I would never let go. As long as I have his face looking at me full of love, I would never let go.

I looked up on his face. I wiped the tears on my face. I looked at him again to make sure I wasn't dreaming or my mind wasn't playing tricks on me.

There is a tear falling from his right eye. And not just a single tear, another is about to fall.

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