Walls

Chapter 13 part2

Louis' POV

I let it out.

I just have to tell Jace.

"I... I cannot love her more than a friend because..."

"Jace, I'm gay."

There.

I said it.

I honestly never thought my secret would affect anyone.

I instantly liked Danielle the first time I saw her.

We are similar in such a numerous and different ways.

So for once in my life, I felt I had one friend who could understand me and be there for me despite my sexual identity.

Danielle was the first one I told that I am gay and she did not, not even a hint, judged me.

She just embraced me and accepted me while I cry my frustrations in her.

I told her how I felt I am different since I was a kid.

But I was too afraid to let that out thinking something might be wrong with me.

I knew I am a boy but I am attracted to the same sex.

That was terribly confusing for a growing boy like me.

I told her I grew up in such a very conservative family. My dad was a pastor and my mom helps in the church.

It would be a disgrace in the family.

Knowing I am the only child. A boy who should be the one responsible in maintaining the surname turns out to be a gay.

If my parents knew they would totally disown me.

It was hard growing up with that fear that no one would understand and every body would judge.

I focused on my studies, graduated with honors. Finished nursing with flying colors just to make my family proud and hid my true feelings and identity.

I decided to work away from home looking for a bit of freedom but turns out I was and always has been afraid. Because somehow people would always say something behind me. Judging me.

But Danielle, she did not judged me. She just listened to my nonstop list of frustrations.

"I... I am sorry." Jace finally said.

I looked at him searching his face for a trace of judgement but I found none. Instead, I saw guilt.

"I didn't knew. I am sorry." He said.

I smiled bitterly.

"You did nothing wrong to me. I was the one who gave you this trouble. You were just afraid to lose her and I would have did that if I was in your place. Danielle is such a gem and anyone would be afraid to lose her. If you knew that I was gay you would not suspect Danielle. She told me about you suspecting us even before and asked me if she can tell you but I was still very unsure back then. I was still afraid so I told her not to tell you yet. If I... If I had the courage before this would not have happened. I am sorry."

He sigh.

"Danielle is such a dear friend. She made me free myself from all my frustrations. Just that day, I was able to tell my parents about me. They were shocked but accepted me. And Danielle was there the whole time supporting me." I said with moistened eyes.

My tears started to fall.

This is all my fault.

This is all the complication of my previous self. And now, I have my family that accepts and supports me, I will fix this. I am stronger now and that is all because of Danielle.

Danielle has helped me when I needed her and now I know she needs me and I will help her.

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Disclaimer. MUST READ.

a/n: I knew, I told you guys that I used some people's real name for my characters.

For one, I used one of my favorite boyband, One Direction's name in my story. And as I have said, I used some of the boys' whole personality (just not the famous singer persona) just like what I did with Niall (Danielle's co-worker) and Zayn (the guy that flirted with Danielle in the park. So, I can agree you may picture the Niall in my story as the real Niall Horan just not famous and not a singer but a nurse and the Zayn in my story as the real Zayn Malik but not famous. okay?

While the rest of the boys, I ONLY used their names. Just like Mrs. Payne, the nurse coordinator who toured Danielle in the hospital, where I only used Liam's surname. Also Mrs. Styles, Danielle's area manager, where I also only used Harry's surname. And Louis, Danielle's closest friend in NewYork, where I still and ONLY USED Louis' name.

There is NO WAY I AM SAYING that the real Louis is gay.

I love Louis Tomlinson because of his bright personality and I personally think he is not gay. Same with any of the boys.

PS. I love all of the boys but I have a soft spot on Niall. He is just so adorable. He is my special sunshine.

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