bonjour • joshler •

dix-neuf

"why do you have my phone?"

tyler looked up, receiving a confused face from the friend before him. the brunette didn't know what to say. sure, he had somewhat of an idea what was happening, but it felt so out of the ordinary for someone like josh to do such a thing.

debby: yeah sure whatever

both boys cascaded their eyes down to the shortly vibrated phone, different emotions overflowing into their minds.

"were you texting debby?"

josh asked, his voice a mixture of fear and slight anger. tyler just looked down at the phone screen that slowly faded back into the electronic sleep. the taller boy grabbed his phone, scrolling across the newly found texts. he cursed to himself, not knowing how to explain all of this to tyler.

"would you like to say something, joshua?" the small boy spoke, coldness in his tone. a spark of anxiety bubbled in the others head, tylers upset.

"listen tyl-"

"so what was the fight about? how she - stormed into your room and hit you. is this some sort of joke on me?"

it wasn't a secret now that tyler absolutely despised debby, so him being angry is an understatement. he stood up during his confrontation, facing the stressed teen in front of him as he dropped his phone to his side. again, josh felt a breath leave his lungs, he made tyler upset. again.

remember the last time he made tyler upset?

"tyler i didn't mean t-"

"you didn't mean to what, josh?"

josh.

"please just, let me explain"

tyler took a breath and sat back down, a slightly angry stare laced through his pupils. he watched as the other closed his eyes and sighed, he brought his hands to his face as if he were to surrender. josh soon dropped his hands, keeping his eyes glued to the ground below him, or anywhere that tyler wasn't.

"i'm not supposed to love you"

oh and how tylers heart shattered. he swallowed toughly and fought back the sudden lump that managed to crawl up his throat.

"joshua-"

"no. i'm not supposed to be in love with a boy. i'm supposed to love a girl, 'supposed to love debby.

when you showed up here, i thought you were going to be like a brother. someone i could bond with on a sibling level. i didn't - i never wanted to feel like this. i never asked to be so - so infatuated with you. and i hate it. god i really hate how every single little thing about you is just so downright incredible and i wish! i wish i could just - i could just run away."