I lost her.

* 44 *

The next day, Later in the evening when I arrived home, I wanted to address Lizelle's behavior from yesterday's lunch.

"Lizelle, I don't mean to stress you."
"Aha?"
"My mother wasn't too happy with yesterday."
"What exactly about yesterday?" she asked.

She wasn't making any eye contact with me whatsoever.

"You. Your attitude."
"I came from holiday. I was tired. Now please." she looked at me dead in the eye before leaving for the bathroom.

I left the bedroom to go into the library. There was nothing to say to her.

Later that evening I wanted to sleep. It was starting to get difficult to share a bed with her.

Before I walked in I could hear on the phone. I didn't catch much of the conversation.

"I don't know what to do. I just can't." she said.

I wondered who she was talking to. When I walked into our bedroom she was packing her clothes.
"Lizelle. What are you doing?"
She sighed and sat on the bed, asking me to come and sit beside her.

"Sam...I really need to be alone for a while. I can't do this."
"Are you leaving me?"
"No. I'm still your wife. I really just haven't dealt with all the stress I have. So tonight I'm spending the night at a friend."

There was a honk outside.

"My taxi is here. I'm sorry"
She grabbed her bags and I begged her to stay but she didn't hear me. She took the mini cab and left. Where she was going was beyond me.

What had I done to her? I was honestly just trying to love her and be a good man to her.

I could feel the pain in my heart and tears clouding my eyes. I grabbed my phone and dialed Courtney's number.

Her phone rang a twice and the third time she rejected my call and switched her phone off. What had I done?

I was devastated . I went to the library to pour myself some scotch. I dialed White's number but he wasn't answering either.

Come to think of it I haven't heard from him. He's probably still on vacation.

I was losing my wife and my unborn child. What did I do?