LIVING WITH HER (COMPLETED)

Chapter 38: Rolling back

THE air is oddly different. Something seems so offbeat, yet still ordinary. It is making me want to go back to sleep again. It's making me want to close my eyes forever, but I get this uncanny feeling as if there's someone in front of me, extending his hand to take me somewhere. I feel like I'm being swallowed by waves of tortuous thoughts that are currently running inside my head and making a vast of destruction where it's impossible for me to cope up, to gasped for air. I'm losing it. My mind is drowning and so am I.

Can you hear that?

No?

'Cause I can.

After few seconds of silence, there's this cool breeze that suddenly sang near my ears, certainly sounding like a lullaby while gently pulling me into hug and giving me that certain calmness and peace. It knows I'm dying. Am I dying? Haha, things couldn't get more irrational. Of course, I'm dying—or maybe not.

But wait, can you feel that?

It's the earth.

What a strange one to feel the earth madness. She's angry. I can feel the raging stumped of the ground, the furious blare of what surrounds me, the shrieked of those who suffer its wrath, and the feeling of fear to see it with your own eyes. Evidently, it's enraged because of me; for being here, for staying here. They want me gone. They want me to understand that I don't belong here, I never belong here.

"Hello? Who are you? Are you all right?"

"Is she okay?"

"I don't know. She's been lying here for a while now."

I bet you hear that.

I frowned.

I don't know if my brows creased into a frown since I didn't feel it, but I know mentally that I did.

I heard sweet little voices. Kids'. Kanina ay para akong hinihila ng antok ngunit nang marinig sila'y bigla iyong nawala. Ramdam ko ang malakas na presensya nila sa aking tabi at kahit pa hindi ko sila nakikita'y alam kong puno ng pagtataka ang mga mata nila habang nakatingin sa akin.

I gulped.

Nakaramdam ako ng uhaw at panunuyo ng aking lalamunan. Nararamdaman ko na rin ang mainit na tama ng sinag ng araw sa aking buong katawan, kaya naman bahagya kong inilukot ang aking mukha saka dahan-dahang iniharang ang isa kong kamay upang hindi mabigla ang mga mata ko habang dahan-dahan itong idinidilat. Mula sa purong kadiliman, sinalubong naman ako ng liwanag na tila ba matagal na mula noong huli ko itong nakita.

"You've woken her up."

"I know. She's not dead."

I blinked my eyes. It took a few seconds before my vision adjusted. Una kong nasilayan ang naghahalong puti at asul na kalangitan saka ako napatingin sa dalawang bata na nakadungaw sa akin ngayon. They're leaning down while holding both of their knees, curiously staring at me. A little boy and a little girl. Tinitigan ko rin sila, nagbabakasakali na maalala at makilala ko kung sino ang mga ito. They're twins. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa katawan nila nang mapansin na medyo kakaiba ang kanilang suot, hindi tipikal na damit na makikita mo sa mga normal na paslit. Para akong nakatingin sa dalawang bata na animo'y galing sa isang coronation night. They look so funny but still adorable. The way they're dressed looks like a prince and princess. Pareho silang may suot na korona at kapansin-pansin ang pagiging mamahalin sa kanilang dating.