Tanya's POV
It's been days since we talked. A week actually. I admit it. I was such a stupid idiot for assuming things. He was a nice friend. Probably even more. I did NOT just say that. But I probably felt that way because he was the first person who kept trying to be friends with me. Kept ignoring the flaws in me and relentlessly trying to talk to me. Annoy me. Entertain me. It felt good. More than good. I donno how to explain that but now it's like another hole in my heart. The emptiness is too much to handle. But somehow I feel sadder than I should be. I shouldn't even feel sad.
Cuz this was what I wanted. Right?
Yes.
No.
I suddenly snapped out of my thoughts when someone patted my shoulder. I turned around to see Sidd and he was holding out his phone to me. "Uh, what?" I was a bit confused. Who does he want me to talk to? His eyes did not even meet mine and his jaw tightened. His eyebrows cringed a bit and he still did not answer me. He gestured for me to take the phone again. Irritated, I snatched the phone from him and spoke. "Hello?.." a familiar voice replied. "Tanya, it's me, Josh," what am I supposed to say? "U-uh Josh?... " don't sound weak, idiotic me. He continued,"can we hang out together?"
Time froze.
Did I want this to happen? Should I give him another chance? What if this was just another trick to mock me? I didn't even know that I was breathing heavily until I heard Josh' voice again. "Hello? Tanya?... You there?.." and I answered a bit too quickly. "I'm here," I should have sounded desperate. My heart felt empty. I couldn't find any emotions. If he was gonna break my heart again, at least I could feel something. Feel like a human.
"Yeah, we can hang out together"
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(my computer doesn't show me the whole of my chapter 24, so I donno if y'all read the draft or the whole of chapter 24. So if like the story doesn't make sense then tell me I can post chapter 24 again or sth)
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Out of her league
FanfictionEver since her school life, she has been following this rule: Never to open up herself to anyone. ANYONE. Because her past experiences in school wasn't the very definition of pleasant and she was afraid to let anyone see her for what she really was...
