Out of her league

Chapter 52

Tanya's POV

      Days ticked by with emptiness. All I could feel was emptiness. I go to work. I come back after eating my dinner outside. Go straight to my room until the next morning. But the weekend was approaching. And that meant I didn't have a workplace to "hide" in. I never want to see him ever again. Who are you lying to? Urgh. He had been out of my sight for the past few days. He had been coming late at night for the past few days and I'm pretty it was to avoid me. I hate myself for all that I have done and I actually just want to crawl into a hole and die. I'm not kidding at all.

And Dahlia moved out of this house yesterday and I really didn't know how to feel. Apparently she got a house near her workplace. I was a bit surprised at first because why would she want to move out of this house when she had a great chance to stay with Sidd and have her shot at him right?

          Yesterday we talked. And that's when I realised that maybe she isn't really a villainous character. She was just a pretty woman who wanted to try and get her love to like her. She told me that she already tried and knew for a fact that Sidd couldn't possibly like her at any point in time because he seemed to have his interests on me. Ahem I am pretty sure he does NOT  have any interest in me. Right after she said that, I choked on my own saliva and just swerved right past that topic and went to inquiring about her house. Dahlia just smirked and went on answering my questions.

Along the way I realised she never was a very bad character. She could be a little unreasonable sometimes and I hate her vanity but I mean she is pretty... so she can be vain and do whatever she wants I guess. But like at least she is honest and open about everything. Everything from her jealousy to her actual thoughts. She was open about everything. But even after knowing about her, I couldn't find it in me to take the initiative to become her friend because of our initial mutual dislike towards each other. But we exchanged numbers anyway. And without her, life was going to be harder because I would have to face Sidd alone. I'm scared.
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Work had ended so late today. Oh shit. I may have to face Sidd. I shouldn't be scared though. Okay yeah I did a mistake but technically I knew Josh for a longer period of time than I knew Sidd. But I still stuck by Sidd's side for a longer period of time. I didn't immediately believe what Josh said right? Everyone is a human; I'm not a lie detector or something. I did not do any grave mistake and I definitely do not have to hide every damn time. I was going to face him.

I opened the door and caught sight of him lazily sprawled on the sofa, watching ninja warriors. His eyes were drooping close but he suddenly caught sight of me and straightened up. His jaw tightened so much that I was afraid he was going to crack his teeth. His eyes stared right through the television. Forget being brave. I scattered away. It was a Friday night where I would watch cupcake wars if not for some huge nuisance using the television. I never liked watching shows on my phone because duhh the screen was too small. Everything in my life had changed and I didn't like it one bit. Kidding. I still don't regret meeting him. I will never regret it.

I couldn't sleep. Through the tiny slits at the bottom of my room door, I could see the absence of light and that meant that Sidd was not in the living room. I decided that I could watch the television and finally exited my room and switched on the living room light. That was when I saw Sidd lying down on the sofa and hugging himself like a child while sleeping. But his eyes caught on to the sudden brightness in the room and his eyes squinted to see me again.

"What the shit are you doing here?" He growled in annoyance. I did not expect that. It was his first few words in the past few days. His fingers combed through his messy hair and he looked around to find for a source of time. "I should be asking that question. And this house isn't just yours and I have all the rights to be here at any time. But just for your information though, I'm here to watch the tv," I explained with nonchalance. That took a lot of courage for me. His eyebrow scrunched up and he looked mildly startled. "You think I can't understand I can see right through you. Just because you put up a brave front now and talk to me as if nothing happened doesn't mean you didn't do any mistake," his brown eyes held annoyance and I couldn't help but gulp a ball of air.

"A little common sense will tell you that my mistake was justified. I knew Josh for a longer period of time. Of course I tend to believe him more! But I was reluctant to believe him at first but then again I thought it to be too coincidental for you to like me after a short period of time! I was already very confused, okay? I'm sorry, what do you want me to do now? Beg on your knees? Do some stupid atonement or whatever? Things were just moving too fast. I know we can't go back to the way things were. But would it kill you for us to be friends again?" I finished. He was still silent; his eyes roaming around the floor. His fists were clenched tightly. I continued," I admit that I miss talking to you, okay? You are important to me and not talking to you is painful for me. I gave you a chance, why wouldn't you give me one?"

His eyes snapped up at me.