Out of her league

Chapter 39

Tanya's POV

He entered the room. I wasn't looking my best. Messy hair, tear-streaked cheeks, red nose... I felt the need to wrap my blanket around me more tightly. I wasn't feeling cold. But it was just the feeling of exposing my heart to someone. And that person wasn't just a someone. It was Sidd. And that said it all. And now he was just standing in front of me, his eyes scrutinising me all over again. He did this every time and I still couldn't get used to it. Why does he do that ? Guess I'll never know. He didn't know the effect of his gaze on me. But he didn't need to know. I decided to speak up first. "What are you doing here?"

"I thought you liked Josh," he ignored my question and came straight to his point. Attack. I sat up with my blanket still wrapped tightly around me. "Umm.. I used to," I don't want to tell him anything anymore. "Used to? You were about to kiss him yesterday," he hissed. He was angry now? What? Why ? AND I DID NOT EVEN WANT TO KISS JOSH I did not want to answer. No way am I going to confess anymore of my feelings. Not if I didn't know what he was feeling. He was waiting patiently; his eyes focused on mine intently. " I don't need to answer all your questions. And I did not want to kiss Josh; I was forced to," I answered with my eyes fixed on his defiantly. His eyebrows creased forward and his arms were folded. We were still holding our stare. It was like a competition. And I did not want to loose to him like I already did.

" Why do you even need to know?" I was curious. His eyes dropped to the floor and his arms unfolded. He was looking everywhere but at me. "As I said, you don't have to care about me or my feelings. I saw you kissing Dahlia. I understand that you already like her -"

"I like you, not her."

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Tanya's POV

I did not want to hear anymore of his lies. He said he liked me. I just saw him kissing Dahlia yesterday. What? He thought I was that dumb. Before my eyes began to flood with tears again, I HAD to walk away. Just then his warm hands gripped my arm and pulled me in front of him. Don't look up. Escape. Both his hands gripped either of my arms, with him being just inches away from me. "Look at me," his raspy voice beckoned me. And me being the stupid one, looked up to his enchanting hazel brown eyes peering into my average jet black ones. " I have never met someone as beautiful as you in my whole life and I know I never will but I knew that you weren't someone who would easily fall for a person... so I never intentionally tried impressing you because I knew I did not have the chance; the key to your heart. I kept lying to myself that I did not like you. But it hurt me so bad when I saw you and Josh together. So bad you wouldn't even know... I don't care if you are playing with my feelings, I can't lie to myself anymore. I love you." I wasn't normal. My heart was beating harshly against my chest and my breathing was ragged. My knees were wobbling. And then came the tears. I knew I shouldn't have looked up. This was too good to be true. I was in a dream. I needed to wake up. This couldn't be reality.

A sharp cough.

It wasn't Sidd.

It was Josh, standing at the entrance of my room.