"How could you do this to me?"
I took a step backward as she began to walk towards my direction. I can sense that she's about to cry.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this. I can't be with you. You know that. You know why. Please."
I wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. I can hear my heart's being torn into pieces. I can feel the pain from my inside, as if my whole being is broken into parts.
"I love you. You made me believe that love is real. And yet, you're leaving me."
I gathered all the strength I have to say the words I should have told her before things got complicated. I was a coward. I believed in fantasy. I thought everything will be alright. I thought we'll be able to make this through. But I realized I was just in denial. In denial of the fact that from the very first, I already knew that we'll never be together.
"I'm sorry. I lied. I'm sorry I made you believed in things that aren't supposed to happen. I'm sorry if I'm hurting you right now."
She continued walking towards me. I took few steps backward, only to realized that my back's already hugging the door.
"Please. Don't leave me. I can't live without you."
I shook my head to disagree.
"No. You can. Of course, you can."
"You don't understand. How do you expect me to live without you? Do you really know what living means? Living means you."
I didn't struggle when she hugged me. After all, this is what I really wanted. To feel my body next to hers.
"I'm sorry."
"Do you love me? No. Did you really love me?"
I can feel her breath on my skin. I hugged her back, trying to calm myself. Because I know that once I let go of what's inside me, I won't be able to do this.
"I'm sorry. I thought I did. I'm sorry."
I slowly let her go, wiped her tears and dried her eyes. I did everything to show her that what we had is not love, and I don't know if I succedeed.
"No. I don't believe you."
"You have to! For God's sake, I'm getting married!"
I saw her hands clenched as her teeth gritted.
"No, you can't. You can't marry my brother. I'll make sure you won't."
Then she slammed her lips against mine, taking away all my senses, making me lose my sanity.
