Live A Little

Chapter 69

I'm deadass wasting 200 on my friend and I for Harry Styles tickets on Friday. I mean it's her birthday gift, but also a gift for myself (; First paycheck of my new job is going to be great.

"Ryder..." I stated slowing getting off of him. I could feel the mistake oozing out and sliding down my on my thighs. "Yeah, baby?' He said lifting his boxer briefs up and sliding his jeans on along with adjusting his belt. "We just had unprotected sex." I stated with panic.

"And? We always do." He said laying back in the car seat. "Ryder it was different this time. You came." "Babe I always come?" "You don't get it, inside me! You didn't pull out!" I screeched panicking.

Ryder's eyes bulged out his head at the realization. "Oh fuck." He mumbled rubbing his hands on his face. "So what are we going to do? Do you want to make another appointment for an abortion?" "Ryder you know how I feel about abortions of course not." I stated scowling. "Well I don't know what the fuck you want to do!" He yelled out.

I looked over at Ryder and screamed, "What and you think I do!" "Babe, look I'm sorry, I didn't mean-" "No fuck you!" I yelled out swatting his hand away. Tears began to roll down my face not even sure what to do.

I don't believe it abortion when it comes to making stupid decisions. If I had sex with the burden of there is a possibility that I could get pregnant then so be it.

"Baby, I'm sorry." He said rubbing my back as I began to sob into my palms. "Just take me home." I said feeling devastated. "No-" "Take me home." I demanded. "You know what, no. We need to talk this out. What if you get pregnant again what are we going to do? Since abortion is out of the option then what's the next plan?" He questioned. "I don't know." I answered truthfully. "What do you mean you don't know?" I gave a dry laugh and said, "Ryder, I really don't know." I began to tear up once more really not knowing what to do. What did I do when I found out I was pregnant with Shawn?

I went to the doctors, I told Ryder, and I told my family.

Ryder will already know, in the next couple of weeks I'll make a doctors appointment to confirm if I actually am or not. And I guess let both of our families know.

Ryder sighed starting the ignition and took the car out of park and in reverse. "I'm really sorry, this is all my fault." He stated. I looked over to see sorrow filled in his eyes. "Hey this is not your fault. We got out of hand this time. Whatever happens in the end it'll work out." I reassured grabbing his free hand.

"I'm just scared, Alex. I was barely there for you in the beginning of your pregnancy. I don't know what to do. It's not like this would be our first child. This would be the second. And that just fucking scares me." I nodded my head looking down at the ground. "Everything's going to be okay. We don't even know if I actually am pregnant or not. So let's take it day by day until we know for sure and then take action." I stated looking up once more.

"How come you know just what to say to make me calm down?" I shrugged my shoulders, "Because they're the same exact words calming me down too."

hi sorry it's a short chap it's kind of like a filler.