Live A Little

Chapter 71

Just a heads up this book will be coming to an end soon, not too soon but soon. I just wanted to thank each and every one of you for reading this. I started writing this when i was fifteen, posted it when i was sixteen, and now i'm 20. Wattpad has always been my outlet to be myself. So i just wanted to take the time to thank each and every single one of you. This was my first story i ever wrote so this holds some sentimental value so ily.

It' been weeks and I had a feeling it was time to do the thing I was dreading since the beginning. I haven't got my period yet while almost every woman I know and who I'm close to has. It was time. I'm so fucking scared.

I closed my eyes stepping inside our local drugstore down the street from Ryder's parents home and made my way towards the feminine products aisle. I am so fucking scared... I looked around to make sure I was the only one in the aisle as I grabbed a couple. Not that it mattered, I mean I'm on surveillance camera anyways.

I would feel so much better if Jen was with me but sadly her and Ryder were in school and I was on my own. I need to face my fear. I scanned the labels making sure I got the most accurate ones. Once again, not like it matters since afterwards I'd be going to the doctors anyways to confirm if I am or not.

I looked over at Shawn to see him still sleeping in his stroller. I closed my eyes clutching the pregnancy test trying to fathom the what ifs. What if I am pregnant? What's going to happen when the next child comes? Where are we going to live? How are Ryder's parents going to take it? Are we going to get kicked out? Are they going to be mad?

I shook my head ridding my thoughts and grabbed a couple more tests of different brands trying to keep the variation open.  With that I slowly made my way out of the aisle and glanced over at the rack of condoms. I angrily stared at them feeling like they where taunting me.

Get over yourself Alex... They're fucking condoms!

I groaned making my way out faster and going up to the self checkout. I don't need judgement from anyone else other than myself. I quickly began to scan the tests hoping that the process would go by faster. And to my luck, it wasn't.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me." I groaned as light monitor above the computer began flashing red showing that I needed assistance. "And what seems to be the problem here?" Some teenage boy walsted over staring down at me. He looked down at my hands and his eyes widened at what I was holding.

I gave a nervous laugh and looked away feeling like I could cry. In which Shawn woke up and began to wail. Me too buddy, me fucking too. "One moment please." I stated as I bent down and grabbed his bottle out of my bag and handed it to him in which he gladly took it. The teenager raised his glasses up higher on the bridge of his nose and looked down at me. "So what can I help you with?" He questioned still flabbergasted.

"I'm not sure too be honest, I scanned this and now it won't me scan any more." I stated handing over the test. How humiliating. He then looked it over and began to type in some code in which made the red flashing light disapper and handed me back my pregnancy test and awkwardly coughed.

I thanked him and finished with the rest and then began to exit the store as fast as I could. Next time this happens I'm having someone else come with me.

The ride home was one of the most stressful things of my life. In almost every song that came on the radio the word baby came out. I graoned outloud and finally turned the volume down fed up. I finally made my way home not figetting to unbuckle Shawn and made my way insde. It was just us two home.

I made my way towards the kitchen grabbing a cup and began to fill it with water. I had about five glasses and then made my way up h strairs getting ready to experience one of the worst things ever right next to birth. I mean not the worst but in my situation it was one of the worst.

I sighed was I began to slide my pants off and ripped open a box of two and began to urinate on the stick. I looked up the ceiling not sure what to hope for. I mean I got what I deserve. I had unprotectd sex and it finally turned around to bite me in the was. I aslo was wanting another child in some weird sick sense. What was I thinking?

I laid the first two on the counter and began to tear open more boxes. I bought about four boxes worth so I think I have about seven to pee on. I sighed hating the waiting proress. Also I hate how long it takes to pee again. I just ant to get this over and done with.

I really wish Jen was here...

I didn't have the courage to inform of this craziness. I know she would be disappointed. Really disappointed. I got up from the toilet getting annoyed with not having to pee so I made my way over towards the counter to see if the reults for the two test I took came out yet. I closed my eyes as I lifted one up and lifted one eye lid looking down.

I opened the other as I stared at it with wide eyes. Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh! My! God! My hands began to shake reriously and the test dropped and fell onto the floor. I didn't even bother to pick it up as I ran towards Ryder and I's room and I grabbed my iPhone and went straight to dialing his number.

"Get home now!" I screamed into the phone. "Baby, what's wrong?" I began to cry as I jumped up and down. Both excitement and worry was flooding through my body. "It- It come out positive!" I screamed out. "Oh my god!" Ryder yelled back into the phone. "Oh my god!" He hollered. "I'm leaving now, I'll see you in a few." And with that he hung up the phone.

I paced around the room still unaware of what to think. I'm fucking pregnant! Again!

I'm sure you all guessed it but hey, I love me some drama. by the way deadass a few months back in decmeber I had some weird pregnancy scare and I deadass was having to buy a test and the thing wouldn't fucking scan in self checkout. It was so fucking embarrassing. Thank god my friend was with me bc I honestly didn't know what to do. But it came out negative and then two weeks later I got my period so bless.